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2009-07-23T23:22:00.002+08:00

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2009-04-01T01:39:00.002+08:00

I wonder will I ever update my blog once a yr?
We shall see..

Today was an interesting day for me.
I actuali drove a car at Tampines Ave 10 in the lorry parking space.
It was rather funny since its super horrible at the same time.
Didnt take any pic.
Even if there is a vid, nd to do some 'adjustment' to it.
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Some personal views from me:

I was very fascinated with this quiz from facebook.

Nurhafizah completed the quiz "Enneagram Quiz" with the result Type five.You are type five. Your vice is avarice. You are a very private person who is very sensitive to intrusion. You tend to feel detached from others, holding back out of a fear of not having enough resources to deal with life. You are capable of great concentration and intellectual accomplishment, but fear of engulfment and postponement of action can make it difficult for you to mobilize yourself into action..

Avarice.
Insatiable greed for riches.
Greed is a very strong word.
Supported by an even stronger word; insatiable.
There are certain reasons as to why we become that way I guess.
However I have my own point of view.
There shud not be any reasons for that.
Practicality and rationality show it all.

I believe that we control our own life.
Whether we succeed or fail, only God knows.
But because we have brains, it becomes a 2nd nature to us to respond to the success or failure.
We choose. Allah decides.
One thing for sure, all goods things come from Allah.
Bad things come from us.
Do you even believe in intuition?
The time when our heart beats very fast.
And we feel guilty somehow.
Or the opposite.
When you feel good, you think that u have found the solution to your so-called problems.

I am thankful that I was born the way I am.
As a muslimah.
As a bright student.
As a respected adult.
As someone who is known to have her life filled with happiness.
But I know something's amiss.
Again, intuition.

I am someone who act out as somebody else.
I am critical at times.
But it is just to point out wad I tink is more appropriate.
Deep down inside, I juz want something reali easy-going.
If possible, I want a laidback environment where people stop mourning over their life.
And wad's important, I want solutions not complaints.
So I can have a serene mind.

Intellectual.
People perceive me as an intellectual person.
But no I'm not.
I tend to think deeper only.
I strongly believe in strategic thinking.
Or easier phrase, think before you speak.
Strategic thinking is something we shud inculcate into our culture, our life.
Juz bcos I own this belief, there is nothing to feel intimidated of.

Why?
A deep confession to be made.
I was once felt intimidated by those people.
They speak as if they own the world.
They speak as if they're the elitists.
They speak as if noone below them ever thot of something philosophical.
But that is all in the past.

People see me as aggressive, ambitious, smart.
Truthfully speaking.
I am none of the above.

Aggressiveness.
I'm not aggressive.
I prefer the art rather than the defence of a martial art.
Why I like ninjutsu so much?
It is close to nature.
It made us appreciate the strength of Earth.
And the vulnerability of humans.
Making use of your surroundings for defence.

Ambitious.
Let me tell you how far I am from being ambitious.
My dream is to travel around the world.
True.
But not because of some company wanting me to be their embassodor.
Rather, to appreciate the different culture, lifestyle and even environment.
I used, and still do dream about travelling around the world to look out for natural sceneries.

Finland.
Aurora borealis.
The northern lights.

New Zealand.
The green pastures.

Smart.
My academic results aren't fantastic.
I am not studious.
I am far away from achieving wad people tink I shud.
Not that I am accommodating to other people's paradigm of life.
I tink there's a need to achieve things like degree or any higher institutions.
Again my bad pointer is dat I take no risk.
I can but I have my own fears.
Which most would have oredi guessed.

All of these made me realise that I have many flaws.
To my actions.
Beliefs.
And even perceptions.

However,
I am determined to continue with life like everyone else does.
To be fearless of everything ahead of us.
Even mistakes.
We have made our choices.
Now we shall see the outcomes.
May be depressive.
Again, it is in our nature to move on to the next big thing of our life.

P.S.: Not everyday I can come out with such a thought.

2008-12-25T23:19:00.003+08:00

20 Dec 08
After blogging, I actually went out with Fadz to East Coast Park.
We talked.
About me.
Then, about her and the guy she has fallen for.
Haiz.
So complicated.
In actual fact, it wasn't complicated.
But humans love to make it likewise.
If not the gal's side, it will be the guy's side.
Well, let's juz hope for the best for her.

Farhana came along.
We talked more.
At the breakwater.
It was at 10.30pm.

Then, we sent Farhana to her destination and headed to downtown east.
Met Zarian.
Decided to book tickets for a night movie.
But it was too late.
Zarian took off.

Then, Fariz came.
Tot of bowling instead.
But unfortunately, my mom called.
It was at 1am.

Reached home at 1.30am.

21 Dec 08
A big day for my cuzzin, Marina.
We had a really great time helping out.
Reached there at 11 sth am.
We ate first, then we helped out.
Duh, food first, help 2nd.
Got lots of pics in my phone.
However, I'm downright lazy to upload them.

22 Dec 08
I was super bored at home.
So I decided to go for cycling at Pasir Ris Park.
Sadly, everyone that I asked was shocked to hear that.
Not because I was such a n exercise freak.
But because it was super late at nite.
8pm to be precise.

Luckily, again as usual, Fadz to the rescue.
She invited me to a Tajwid class.
At Tampines.
It was interesting.
We ended at 10pm.

But we did not stop there.
We went to CS cos Fadz reali wanted to go to the Ladies.
Then, we headed off to Macs.
When, we were about to talk, Eileen called.
Well, she was around the area.
Wad the heck, I juz invited her along.

For the 1st time, I actuali have to hear 2 stories at a time.
Fadz's and Eileen's.
So I decided to take turns hearing them.
Lol.
Reached home at 12.30am.

23 Dec 08
I woke up at 6.44am.
Bathed and dressed up in my jogging gears.
Well, it was more like my Yoga gear.
Reached Bedok reservoir at 7.40am.

Met Fadz soon after and we ran around the reservoir.
Together.
We finished running by 8.25am.
Pretty fast huh?

Yup it sounds too good to be true.

But clock doesnt lie.

We actuali planned to jog with Farhana.
But she was still sleeping.
But we still waited for her cos we were supposed to go for kayaking after.

I couldn't believe that we had the time to settle my giro form for my insurance.
Sent Fadz home with my bike.
Took wadeva documents that were necessary.
Then took off to Maybank to get my signature right.
Then, headed back to reservoir.

Farhana finali reached and we went for kayaking.
It was super relaxing.
Didn't do much on the hands movement.
We let the water took control of us instead.

2.30pm, we went to simpang bedok.
Ate our lunch.
And most importantly,
we talked.
Reached home at 4.30pm.

8.30pm.
I went for aerobics.
It was my aunt's idea to spent my boring days at home.
So decided to give it a try.
It was reali a pumping exercise.
The makciks there must be super healthy.
FYI, I'm the youngest participants.

Isn't it nice to be out every single day?
Tiring, yes.
But nice, yes too.

P.S.: We're aging. But that doesnt stop us from having fun :)

Men

2008-12-20T16:41:00.003+08:00

Today's title is about men.
Just Men..

Let's cut the chase,
go straight to the point.

I have many funny encounters with men.
I think it's about 6 weird, funny, interesting, disgusting wadsoever encounters.

1st:
In JC, when I was training myself for the soccer faculty game.
A guy taught me how to kick.
The next thing I knew,
he started to msg me online.
At first, as frens.
But later, it gets deeper.
Unfortunately, he wasnt in my list.
I actually tried to avoid him.
Seeing him, messaging him and what-nots.
Then, the story ended with me enabled to avoid him.

2nd:
I was working.
Promoting charity in front of Tan Tock Seng Hospital.
Met a guy.
Asked him to donate.
He didn't have any credit or debit cards to pursue the monthly donations.
So he wanted to use giro.
Got my handphone no. so that he could reveal his account no.
Next thing I knew, he suddenly talked me into mariage!
He was not good-looking at all!
Not to mention, bad personality.
At least, not to my liking.

3rd:
I was supposed to meet my frens at tanjong beach for her 20th bdae.
Bought a cake and decided to flag a cab.
Still no cab passed by.
Den, a car drove passed me and stop a metre away.
He called out for me.
I went closer and he actually wanted to hitch a ride there!
Lucky me, I thought.
We talked.
I expressed my passion for digital stuff.
Which goes down to laptops.
He asked for my no. so he could inform me for any cheap laptops.
Next thing I knew,
he kept messaging me.
There's once he even asked me to meet him up.
I rarely know him!
So I ignored him totally.
That's the history of our encounter.
FYI, he's pretty old for me.
40 plus if im not wrong?

4th:
I received a msg from a guy whom I don noe.
It was my colleague's doing.
She actuali gave my no. to her fren.
That guy msged me for quite a while.
But I have to give him some credits.
Wen I nreali need help to accompany me to go school,
he actuali agreed to it.
So waited for me under my block and we headed off to my sch together.
That's wen I hit the curb and got seriously injured.
He was the one who brought me to clinic with his 2A bike, back and fro.
Very reliable indeed.
But there's one thing that I felt disgusted about him.
I told him that I need to take a bath.
And wen he replied me, so wanna bathe together?
I was puking to death!
(It's a figure of speech)
From there, I started to ignore him.
Niwae, he's 30 yrs old!
Too old.

5th:
I went to Ah Boy to fix my windscreen and my uncle's helmet.
It was due to an accident I had.
Cant remember which but that's not the point.
A guy came up to me cos I seemed to have lost my way.
Haha.
Lost my way to Ah Boy's.
By rite, Ah Boy was juz in front of me.
So he further helped me by assisting me to buy things dat I need.
The next thing I knew,
he called up his gang members!
All of them worked as a team to repair my bike!
I was super amazed.
Once done, that guy who approached me asked for my no.
I felt obliged to give it to him.
But after wad he has done for me, wad the heck..
Juz give it.
Den he kept msging me.
Its irritating.
It's always about, what r u doing now.
Or, have u eaten.
So redundant.
So I ignored him completely.
Btw, he's not in my list of guys that I would flirt with.

6th:
The last and the interesting part.
A guy left a small, yellow note on my bike.
Asking me to msg him.
Reason being, he's also from SIM.
So, I decided to give him a 'go'.
I msged him.
I realized, we never met before.
He admitted that he knew me thru' my bro.
He only caught a glimpse of me while I was riding.
Sori to say this but I dont wish to have any r/ship with my bro's fren.
Juz as acquaintance is alrite for me.
Not frens.
I feel weird.

Recently, I met this guy at a True Fitness club.
I got a complimentary pass for a personal fitness workout.
It was meant for all True Yoga members.
This guy was my personal fitness instructor.
His bod is super hot and fits nicely in his every parts!
Super fit and most important, he looked super strong.
Any gal would be very comfortable having him hugging them.
Wow..
His touch was reali great.
I know this is lust and not love.
But reali, hu cares?

Unfortunately, I always missed this kind of opportunity juz like dat!
Hmph!
He was making conversations with me!
And I shud have lengthen the conversations.
Or even go deeper into it.
But stupid me, NO!
I didnt.
Serve me rite!
Please don't let me face any funny weird encounters!
Let me meet some guys of my dream..

I'm begging my fate!

2008-12-10T00:26:00.002+08:00

Is Blogging still consider popular?
Cos I feel like it's reali a bore!
Writing about your personal stuff.
That never interest people anymore.

Well, at least, that happens to me.
Alrite, the root of the whole boring thing is not the blogging.
But the downloading part.
Pictures tell a thousand words!
So do videos!
If someone out there has the power to change the blogging system,
I'll be the happiest, no,
One of the happiest gals on earth!

Bluetooth not working.
From handset to PC.
Where is the technology when I need them the most?

FYI, I have many things to write about.
Cos my life is just the beginning.
Erm..
It has always been at the beginning.
Never reach a climax.
Wonder why..

Exciting but stagnant.

Interesting but not thrilling.

I need more fun challenges that involves people.
Not humiliation but elevation.

I need action.
Power.
Can I add man too?

Haiz.
There's excitement in my life.
But not exciting enough for me.

Night.
Dreams are truly the best aspiration.
For me.
Good night.

2008-11-15T23:17:00.002+08:00

On e 9th Nov 2008.

I went bowling with Fad.

Unfortunately, she brought along her fiance-to-be.

I feel like a light bulb...

Niwae, here goes..

This is Fad posing after she bowled.

Check dis out! Im glowing...

Another try of pic taking without the 'air' scene compared above.

Our final score for 1st round. And yup, I'm 1st from bottom. :p

Great scenery taken in the lift.

Bike incident.. Again..

2008-11-10T00:04:00.005+08:00

HEY!
Welcome back Fizah!
Long time no hear, Fizah!
Wad have u been doin, Fizah?

Alrite, alrite..
I was about to answer those questions.
Where shud I start...
PICTURES!

More precise, pictures on e 8th Nov 2008 incident.

Once again, I ran out of petrol.

Never learnt from my lesson huh?

(Look at my August archive)

I tot I could sustain the petrol till nite.

That means, it shud take me to and fro from school.

I was wrong.

Fad to my rescue. Came with her sister with petrol!

Gasoline bought from Caltex at $12.10 for 4.5litres.

Posed for the camera!Let give her around of applause!

All done.. So we decided to take a pic of us to remind me of my silly mistake.

My bike resumed as per normal. Finally.

2008-08-26T01:02:00.003+08:00

Oh yeah not forgetting my recent cam-whoring session with my bike.

It's after my Commercial Law test.

;PI was at Bukit Timah Shell Petrol Station. Posing a bit first.
Now, this is the real thing; filling up my almost empty tank.
Finally, I sent Eileen back home. So I thot of taking a pic of myself with the bike.

Cheers!

2008-08-26T00:37:00.001+08:00

Hehe..

Again, I've updated my pics on marquee.

Below is juz another enlarged version of the pics.

Niwae, if anyone happened to notice,

the pictures moves along with time.

From those days when I was in TPSS to Grad Nite '03.

Then TPJC to working life.

And finally, in SIM.

You should see my social life, man..

I'm happy to be me!

4E1 Physics class.

Grad Nite 2003. With our principle, Mr Neo Tick Watt.

Dikir Barat MCS on Teacher's Day 2004

2008-08-17T23:47:00.002+08:00

Haiz...
I love the Beijing Olympics 2008.
I think it's the only olympic that I ever watched with full enthusiasm.
The opening ceremony was awesome.
The games are fantastic.
So many talented sportsmen and sportwomen out there!

Unfortunately,
Singapore does not have her own sports talent.
Even if there is, its incomparable to other countries.
Anyway, im happy that we won a silver medal for the table tennis women's team!
At least something.
Despite that ALL 3 of the athletes are not true singaporeans.

Li JiaWei and Feng TianWei seemed to be the stronger one.
But I realized that Li JiaWei seemed to be a notch down lower.
Her performance this year was so-so.
As a matter of fact, Feng seemed stronger and better den Li.
Well, this is juz my personal opinion.
Not too sure whether it's my intuition or otherwise.

The final match between China and Singapore was interesting.
To think dat those 3 'Singaporeans' are born in China.
Do they feel any guilty of betraying their country?
But since they lost to their homeland,
there aren't much to criticize.
For once, I thot, they are.
When they played the final match, they seemed to be very demoralised.
Especially TianWei when she kept giving points to Wang Nan.
She kept shaking her head as if telling herself that it's over.
Straight away I noe, half the battle lost.
No faith to keep up with the score.
Or even win.

Overall, it was a real pump for me!
I was hopping for them to get a Gold medal.

Niwae at the victory ceremony when they given the medals,
I was reminiscing over my Silat days.
I won silver for my Jurus Wajib.
An art of Silat where 3 girls have to synchronise with one another.
I was overwhelmed with the fact that we almost won 1st.
It was a great memory to be standing on the podium.
People shaking hands, congratulating one another.
Taking pics.
We deserved it after a long hard, tough training.

I miss those days...

2008-08-04T23:57:00.003+08:00

Today I'm very very angry!
I almost lost balance from my bike lah!
I can't believe a car zoomed past me.
I don't mind if they zoomed past me like half arm length.
But zooming past me by an inch is preposterous!
Argh!
That car!

But thank God I was able to stabilise within seconds.
How I wish we could terminate ALL those selfish drivers!
Luckily, I'm still fully intact..
Some people...

2008-08-03T01:25:00.002+08:00

After a few years of having the same blog skin,
well here goes...
Nice blog I have to admit.
Credits go to sweetilicious.
Haha.

While i was putting up pics under 'Star Princess',
I realized I do not have any pics with my fren whom I knew for 6 yrs.
Lol..
Hey gal, we shud take pics together from now on k?

Niwae,
Signing off,
Fiz.

My 2nd Wk On Road

2008-08-01T20:41:00.002+08:00

I have another story.
On the expressway.
It goes like this:

It was 8am in the morning.
I could actuali rush to school but too sleepy.
All because of burning the midnight oil for MAB.
Management Accounting & Business.
(For those who dont know).
I slept at 2am in e morn.
It's very dangerous to ride on road especially when u're sleepy.
Or at least I think so.

I dilly-dallied bathing, dressing up, etc.
The time past by to 9.30am.
I woke Eileen up at 8am and guess wad?
She juz woke up.
So she said she'll be late.
So am I.
I tink we got out of e house at the same time.
I also told her that I wont be speeding up.
Too tired to do so.

On the way to school.
At PIE.
Near to Eunos exit.
My speedometer dropped.
Slowly but significantly.
I tink my oil is running very, very low.
So I decided to stop at the right shoulder lane.
Its not a shoulder lane but it's enuf to park ur bike without any obstruction to the road.

I was stranded!
Noone will stop for me at the expressway especially at the 1st lane.
Like of course!
They shouldnt!
Luckily the LTA and TP guys saw me.
They had to continue riding all the way.
So I tot they decided not to stop for me.

In 15min times, they came back for me!
Yayy!
The LTA guy asked me wad happen.
While TP asked me, "Do u need to go to hospital?"
I was trying to suppress my laughter.
Cos I wasnt hurt at all.
So the 2 guys actuali stopped the traffic flow.
And the TP guy pushed my bike to the chevron marking.
He called the tow truck.
And both took off.
I was left dere alone.

It was at 10.30am.
Called Fadz for help.
Den called Eileen cos I was bored.
She had reached school.
.....
Luckily she did not pillion me.
Or else she wud be late for class too.

I waited for the tow truck for so long.
Luckily a guy came to my rescue.
I didnt get to ask his name.
He was so kind to do U-turn juz to help me out.
Niwae, he tried to start my bike.
And it can be started.
He led me the way to the nearest petrol station at Geylang.
Finally, everything's over.
Or at least I thot.

After filling up wadeva is needed, oil and 2T,
my bike cant start at all!
Wow..
The day like couldnt get any worst lah!
They car washers (4 of them) were helping me to start e engine with full of determination!
I was so touched.
Aniways, I already missed my morning class.
Haiz.

Fadz came.
She decided to wash her bike 1st.
U know...
Killing 2 birds with one stone kinda thing.
Ate our lunch at Geylang Serai.
Came back from lunch and prayers at 2pm or so.
Got to bike.
Fadz called her fren, Hilmi.
Helped me push the bike ALL the way to motorcycle repair shop.
Again, I was very touched.

Reached dere at 3.30pm to 4pm.
I did a quick servicing.
The uncle said dat my carburetor had gone black.
It's a long story.
Have to wait for another hr.
Went for a drink.
I didnt realise that today is extremely hot!
So decided to quench our thirst.

We had a talk abt our life.
My past secondary life and Fadz's.
Well, I reali tink I nd to move on.
But 1st I wan to see how Anisa looks like.
She took the guy that I once liked.
And still do.

Aniways, after the 'talk', we went for evening prayers.
Den came back for the bike.
Woah..
Finally..
Den, we actuali decided to go to Mustaffa.
Unfortunately, I lost her along the expressway.
So I decided to go home.
Before I ride home, I actuali went to Eileen's hse to pass her the law notes.

Reached home at 8pm.
Im super exhausted!
Why me??
...............

2008-07-27T22:32:00.002+08:00

My life is getting boring.
Alrite.
Maybe juz during weekends.
I need a part time job.
3 times a week.
Including weekends.
I want it after 4th August.

...............................................................

2008-07-19T23:05:00.003+08:00

On the 17th of July 2008,
I've finally passed my riding licence.
With 14 demerit points.
Phew!
Wad a relieve.
After such a long time waiting for the moment to arrive.
Finally!
Yayy!
I'm so delighted.
I don't reali know wad to say.

Unfortunately, something happened on my 2nd day of passing my TP.
I got a road accident.
I hit the curb when turning for a sharp deviation.
At 5th gear.
90-100 kmh.
Couldn't stop in time.
There I go!
Got slide off from my bike.
Pity my bike.
It got scratches and the windscreen was cracked.
I was hurt too.

Moral of the story:
Don't be too eager to ride a motorbike immediately after you passed your TP.
It's convenient and all.
But most important, don't ever ride at 90-100 kmh at expressway.
No matter how slow you are.
Or how many drivers overtake you.
It's not worth the risk.
Believe me.
Unless you want to learn the hard way.

To be honest with you, no matter how rude drivers can be on road, they dont dare to scold you if you're slow.
Especially with those p-plates you have!
Ride slow and steady.
With better judgement and experience, go ahead and speed up if you want to!

Oh yeah!
Don't try to act cool by letting go of one handle.
You may lost balance.
Unless you are at a slow speed.
Always, always be careful!
It's not worth the money and the pain.

Cheers!

Nite Cycling

2008-07-15T00:35:00.005+08:00

Nite Cycling!

I didnt know it has been ongoing since like forever!
I am so ignorant.

Niwaes, I finally get to do some volunteers.

After all these years

Since sec 2. The old folks thing.

Well what did I do?

I marshalled the areas that cyclist rode to ensure safety in all the cyclists.

These cyclists are secondary sch students btw.

Not bad huh?

As you can see, its an event on Youth On Wheelz held by Mendaki.

There! Only young teenagers. Standing at East Coast Park at 12 midnite.

Now, they were juz listening to the instructions.

This is reali creepy.. Never been out dis late..Ok maybe once.. twice..

Juz another candid shot. Look at how tired they are..

Can't remember wad they were called. But i think they were the path-finders. Pardon me if im wrong.

Another piece of my shot. They look so listless. Poor them!

The light has shone upon them to guard those kidz. Our guardian angels. Also known as the safety marshals. Hehe.

The host is doing a great job!

Hehe. Couldnt resist the temptation of taking photo of meself. We're finally at our point.

Check this out! This was the place that we were deployed. Quiet.

To nit cyclists out there, you dont need to worry abt the traffic cos there is only ONE car. Juz joking! Be careful aniwaes..

Milipede was found on the road site.

This is the bridge at Changi point, where Nasi Ayam Penyet located. At least, its near to that stall.

After that, I realized I dont have any space inside my phone.

My microSD was corrupted and I havent bought a new one.

So the nite ended here.

Actual Date: 5th July 08

Sch Re-opens!!

2008-07-15T00:12:00.005+08:00

Wad can I say.

School reopens.

Back to the book routine.

For the past last wk,

we (my OGmates & I) have been taking pics and more pics.

As usual,

our dear mich never miss taking photos of us.

I'm taking photos of Mich & I taking Photo of us. Hmm..

Beauty and the Beast (Ru Yuan & Harry). Lol.

I guess Harry was very tired of taking nice photos.

Candid picture of Harry and William. Don't ask me wad they were doing back den..Can't be bothered..

Why dont they look at my camera phone? becos someone was taking their picture.

Well Mich had to be in e centre, not becos its her bdae on dat day but bcos i juz joined in.

Nice picture gals! Keep it up!

Juz random shots.

Me and JiangLing.

We're supposed to act out a scene. But due to unsightly scene, my phone automatically cut off that part. Good boy!

Aww.. Pretending to be sweet.

Now, we're really tired of taking pics. No idea why we were still dere.

Alrite. One last pic with Jocelyn. Calling off e day!

(That's a lie.)

Actual Date: 9th July 08

2008-06-10T21:07:00.002+08:00

Angry people.
Here and there.
Everywhere.
You can never miss them.
After one had their worst day,
they vented their anger on someone else that comes in their way.
Or they juz want to find fault on the nitty gritty stuff.

Am i complaining?

No.
Juz observing how people behave.

Then I realized there is a self-projection here!
I'm one of them!
But luckily i've come to realize it for after 3/4 of the day.
So there are some things that we cant blame others.
It is some inner emotions that we juz have to release it.
Never, never suppress your anger.
If u've got to release it, do it now.
Otherwise, it'll get worse.

One strength I have is that I can bear all the whatnots behaviours.
Of other people.
I can smile at how they burst in rage.
I can even pacify them.
Do anything to the extent they actually cooled down.

However one great weakness that I have is,
I can never do the same with my family.

What is the difference?!

I don't get it.

Some soul reflection for myself:
1. This is just another test from God.
- God will never test us beyond our capabilities.
- So it is a good thing. One step up to another level.
2. This happened because it is preparing me for a bigger and tougher obstacles in the future.
3. Everything happens for a reason. Be it good or bad.
(That's what I told those who seek for an advice or consoling)
4. Besides, there are always someone who will bring laughter to my rainy days.

I guess things do not always turn out yo be the best but rather it's how you make the best out of how things turn up.

Bismillah.

2008-06-09T21:02:00.002+08:00

Alrite.
I got half an hour to write.
I'm still at work.

Ok.
I failed my TP again.
Pretty sad.
I cried.
As the tester gave me my results.
Can't bliv I did not improve a single bit in my points!
No immediate failure still.
A lot of minor points tho.
Improvement in wobblings.
Additonal demerite points for poor acceleration.
Aargh!!

Somebody tell me why is this happening to me?!
Everyone whom i knew, who took e TP after me, passed oredi.
Now im still stuck at CDC.
Seeing the instructors all over again.

I'm tired.
I wan to have my own transport.
Now.

Ya Allah!
Turunkanlah rahmat ke atas ku ini.
Amin.
Ya rabbal alamin.

2008-05-17T00:55:00.003+08:00

17th May 2008
The day my fren got engaged.
Cool huh!
But too young.
As for me,
Boyfriend-less.
Marriage is so far fetched.

Niwae I have many things to do in mind.

School:
Exams over.
Waiting for results.
2 mths term break.
Tot of involving myself in IT club.
Nerdy?
I don't reali care now.
Wad's impt is how IT can help improvise a business career.

Work:
Still at the same workplace.
Worked there for 6 mths plus.
Gonna work for another 2yrs.
5pm to 10 pm.
Half of my life in 1 day is gone.
Left another half.

Bike:
2 wks to go to my TP.
Gonna work reali hard for it.
Been focussing on figure 8.
Trying to eliminate e wobbling problem.
Already booked for road n circuit revision.
26,27,28 May.
Plus 20 and 22 May for thorough circuit revision.

There U go.
My life is full of things to do.

Tot of continuing PERGAS.
After watching Ayat-ayat Cinta.
It makes me wonder more about Islam.
Increases my curiosity about Islam.
I want to know the history, the unknown dimension.
And many more.
It interests me.

There!
How can i ever think abt marriage?!
Guys?
Far from it!

Feeling lonely?
Yeah.
A bit.
I'm still young.
Guess, I shall enjoy my singlehood to e fullest.

2008-04-17T14:50:00.002+08:00

Juz took TP in e morn...
Looks like my days are getting depressing each day.

I met 3 gals along the way.
All are 19 goin to 20 dis yr.
Out of 4 of us, 1 passed.
2 of us got immediate failure.
Well as for me, no immed failure.
But too many demerit points.
34!
How outrageous can dat be?!
I wobbled so many times meh?!
Alrite maybe I did.
But cant they be more lenient?
And wad worse is dat,
SINCE WHEN I GOT IMPROPER CHECKING OF BLINDSPOT?!
For all my road rev, I had my blindspot rite.

Wadeva it is, I shall not repeat my mistakes.
If reali it was my mistakes.
Which I doubt so dat I did any mistakes.
Niwae, dis time round,
i will be extra kiasu.
Afterall, there isnt any time limit.
So I can take my time.

Feel like re-taking it again.
Now.
Not 29 May.
I wan to ride on my bike NOW!

So demoralizing...

Something amiss...

2008-03-15T23:17:00.002+08:00

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

Wad a...
Demoralising song...

I don't know why i'm feeling kinda empty.
This is the exact feeling I had when I was sec3.
But then, I decided to change into a better person.
And, yup, I felt great then.
Now I lost the great feeling.
Why don't I feel any better now?
I'm missing something in my life.
Well, I don't tink its bcos of love for a guy!
Cos I have no desire to be in a relationship.
Honest.
I tink it's more than relationships.

Gosh!
Someone tell me wad's wrong with me?!
Am I not having enough fun?
Always work and no play?
No time for myself?
Pls don't tell me this is a symptom of depression.
Even if it is,
I don't wish to believe it.
I believe we should be optimistic.
Thank God, Im a Muslim.
It made me feel as if I have better objectives in life.

As for now,
I juz dont know why i'm feeling so empty.

2008-03-01T22:55:00.004+08:00

I actuali took pics during my break time for BC class.

SOmetimes,

I tink I have passion for taking pictures.

But other times,

I dont.

but wadeva it is,

here is my workpiece.

Coffee or Tea?

World Toilet Organization (WTO)

Our dear property agent from ERA

Thick clouds. It's going to rain soon. Convectional rainfall.

Seow Liang and Seow Liang's frens, Ian and who noes hu..
Having our short tea break.

Juz another random pics.

Check out the university life.

The End.

2008-02-16T23:50:00.004+08:00

Haha.
I realized i've been crazy about motorbikes.
School has started.
And here i am dreaming abt bikes.
I tink people can go crazy talking to me.

Finally, Fadz helped me to bring my bike to Tamp from Pasir Ris PArk.
She sent me to CDC.
Took my prac 6.
I failed btw.
Nothing's new.
It's as if I was cursed not to pass for my 1st trial.

At Pasir Ris Park, I did one round using my uncle's bike.
Yamaha RX-Z.
Sth dat e johor-ian will come and steal.
So have to be careful wen goin to Johor.
Haha.

Niwae wen i came back from CDC,
ard 15min, Fadz and her fren came along with my bike.
At least I dont feel guilty cos Fadz enjoyed herself riding e bike.

The whole half day was taken up by me goin out with Fad.
Straight away after my class.
Sori.
After lunch with my OGs.
Was planning to stay in sch with Luke.
To do my essay.
And learning how to do accounting.
Changed my mind and followed Fadz instead.

Now, my mission is to learn the motor parts.
I believe,
If there's a will, there's a way.
I will strive for the license.
I wan to get my license by dis April.
From wad Danish told me,
we must have confidence in ourself.
And passion for it.
That drives us to where we want to be.
Amin.

2008-01-19T18:22:00.000+08:00

Wadeva it is,

I'm living my life to the fullest.

2008-01-19T18:05:00.000+08:00

Katherine McPhee

Everywhere I Go

It's funny how you think you really know yourself
Like you would never lose yourself to someone else
And I was up to thinking it was all about you and me
Silly silly me
I should have never listened to a word you said
But I was always giving in to promises
I never should have gone for
I should never long for you no matter how hard it gets
And I want this to be over
I so want this to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you

Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me(You wasn't man enough)
To come and tell me(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn't love me anymore

If you had only told me how you really felt
I could have put my feelings into someone else
But I was busy thinkin' I was where I was supposed to be
Silly silly me
But there was something 'bout you that I couldn't resist
Can't put my finger on it but whatever it is
I never should have stood for it
I know you're no good for me
And that's the way it is
And I want it to be over
I so want it to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you

Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me(You wasn't man enough)
To come and tell me(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn't love me anymore

I tell myself
Get over you
It's over right
Right thing to do
And just when I thought I was done
You pull me in for another run
I can't take this
I won't take this
I can't do this
I Won't do it
Even if I know in the end somehow it always comes back to you

Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me(You wasn't man enough)
To come and tell me(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn't love me anymore

2007-12-31T22:34:00.000+08:00

Where was I?

The last time I wrote was abt my prac.

I'm still not over with my practical.

I am getting irritated!

No.

Pissed off!

Im at prac 3.

Am still at prac 3 for countless of times oreadi!

I saw this guy.

When I was going for my 4th time,

he was at his 1st.

Now when I met him again juz now,

he was already at his practical 4!

Guys!

They somehow got this super ability to pass their practicals at e shortest period of time.

Wa-liao!

I felt damn embarrassed.

I guess that guy was laughing his head off looking at me still struggling at my prac 3.

I got my dream bike.

At first it was kawasaki ninja.

But then I realize it was bulky.

So I chose these.

A bike dat I saw at Pasir Ris Park.

Hehe.. Juz took this photo on my way back home.

2007-12-02T22:48:00.000+08:00

I juz had my 2nd session of prac 1.
Question marks?
Hey to all the people out there!
I'm taking a riding license.
License 2B.
Motorcycle.
Why I wrote this down?
It's for the benefit of those who noes NOTHING abt this license.
Cos, I'm one of them.

I'm having a lot of trouble with my license.
I cant stop and brake and change gear to 1st gear ALL at the SAME TIME.
Gosh!
I felt so embarrassed.
I actually broke down.
Reali cried in the middle of the circuit.
Now I feel so..
I dont know..
Sad.
Confused.
Embarrassed.
Angry.
With myself.
For being so weak!

The 1st instructor strutted off.
Then, came another instructor which is so much better.
He showed some faith in me.
He even rode me around the circuit.
I'm his pillion.
He asked me to check out how he did it.
Why i'm so demoralised juz now was because I never fail so many times in my life.
Niwae,
I would like to thank Fadz and Ezy.
You guys reali lighten me up a bit.
Now im all geared up to try again.
This will be my 3rd session of prac 1.

InsyaAllah.
I will pass to prac 2.

Wad a huge disparity between today and yesterday.
Yesterday I was so happy.
Unlike today.
I felt so devastated.
I shud be thankful that I did make it around the circuit.

Ok.
Juz a bit of sypnosis of wad I did yesterday.
Went out with my family to Geylang.
Ate sup tulang.
Den, I went to Masjid Kg Siglap.
To help out for the charity event.
Used books and pc to be sold out.
I took pics using Fashiha's camera.
I was satisfied with my work tho.
Finally, I planned to watch a movie with Wawa.
But before dat, I went to Mac for a place to seat.
So i decided to buy a hot fudge sundae.

Hmm..
This is longer den a sypnosis.

Cut it short.
I saw a group of delivery man with helmets.
Asked them where they bought it.
Den a very kind soul actuali lent his helmet to me.
His helmet is still with me btw.
Then, Wawa and I watched 'Enchanted' at 7.30pm.

It was reali great.
I feel like a princess.
(Well, I am btw)
It was so sweet and..
sweet.
U know wad I mean.
Go and watch it if u havent.
It's reali awesome!

Ta-da!
Done.
I was out the whole day!
(Yesterday..)
Cant believe it..

Cheers!

2007-11-27T13:56:00.000+08:00

Paula De Anda - Walk Away

I saw you wit your new girl just yesterday
And I feel that I must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I'll admit that I was impressed
Physically just short of perfection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though I know I shouldn't be concerned
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question..

Does she rub your feet
(When you've had a long day?)
And Scratch your scalp
(When you take out your braids?)
Does she know that you
(Like to play PS2 'till 6 in the mornin' like I do?)

[Chorus:]
I can't exlpain this feelin' (yeah)
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on (uh huh)
It gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gon remember you
You gon remember me)
Walk Away
(Forever you will live in my memory)
Walk Away
I'm gonna remember you
You gonna remember me
Walk Away
I can't forget how we used to be

[Verse 2:]
Guess I gotta live my life from day to day
Hoping maybe you'll come back
And though I tell myself not to be afriad
To move on but it seems I can't
Though a new man has given me attention
It ain't the same as your affection
Though I know I should be content
In the back of my mind I can't help but question...

Does he kiss me on the forehead
(Before we play?)
Show up on my doorstep
(with a bouquet?)
Does he call in the middle of the day
(just to say)
Baby I Love You
(Like you use to)

[Chorus:]
I can't exlpain this feelin' (yeah)
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on (uh huh)
It gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gonna remember you
You gon remember me)
Walk Away
(Forever you will live in my memory)
Walk Away
I'm gonna remember you
You gonna remember me
Walk Away
I can't forget how we used to be

Bridge]
so hard to express this feeling
cause nobody compares to you (to you)
and you know she'll never love you like i do

[chorus 2x]
i cant explain this feeling
i think about it everyday
and even though we've moved on
it gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gonna remember you, you gonna remember me)
walk away, walk away
(I'm gonna remember you, you gonna remember me)
walk away

shopping trip!!

2007-11-27T00:39:00.000+08:00

This is wad I promised to do.

To post out our shopping trip.

It was a while ago.

On the 11/11/07.

Sunday.
2.30pm.

I spent almost more den $100.

I didn't know I was a shopaholic.

Well,

I still think I'm not.

Niwae, that's beside the point.

The point is, I'm having a great time!

We shud ENJOY once in a while.

Here's the pics!

ENJOY!

Look at our fresh faces! In the bus on the way to tamp int..

Finally, we reached tamp int. Masih ade time nk ambik gambar.. Betul punye minah.. Lol..

At the escalator..

That's me!

Finally inside the train. Wawa and Nurraini. This is wad we call the cuzzin bonding. Can say covalent bonding. Doesnt matter.

Another covalent bonding here.

Fine, another one. And the last for this post. So readers dont get bored looking at our so-tak-tau-malu photos.Only God knows wad they are thinking..

Opps! We're not supposed to take photos in a shop.. But since noone is looking, only one isnt any harm.

Check this out! Look at my skills of taking this photo!

Another one of my great shots. Fizah, I didnt know u have so much talent in photo taking! (Self-praised..)

Woo-hoo! The trio!

Again, we took our pic in a shop.. Juz another one more..

Just, showing off my talent at picture taking.. ;P

Finally, we are done with our shopping. Went to Nana Restaurant. U can see how exhausted we are.

Hehe! Our food had arrived. We ordered Tom Yam, and whatnots.

I didnt know my cuzzin looks so young and cute little girl..

11.30 pm. We are still in the MRT. On our way back home. Haiz..

Of course there is more pictures dat we took.

Too many if I were to put all of them.

Niwae, if interested to check out more of our funny poses, log onto:

http://fizahwce.multiply.com/

Cheers!

2007-11-11T00:21:00.000+08:00

Lol!!

I cant bliv I juz wrote a stupid story..

Haiz.. I feel so much better now.

I almost forgot who i am.

A girl who holds strongly to her principles.

Welcome back Fizah!

The future of CEO!

once upon a time

2007-11-10T23:03:00.000+08:00

Hey!
I dont know why I'm so happy today.
Maybe bcos I got so many job interviews (part time of course).
Or maybe I finally blurted out wadeva Ive been keeping to myself lately.
Thanks Eileen.
You may not know wad You have done by just lending Your ears.

According to others, I am extrovert.
I can talk to anyone AND everyone.
I can bring joy and laughter to their faces.
But one thing I cant is, letting out my deepest feelings.
My heart is, however, introvert.
This is my true colour.
Let's just say I'm a mysterious gal who never talk anything abt my inner self to others.
Wad makes me think that way?
It all happened when I met a guy...

The story goes like this..

One fine day, a princess was feeling very bored.
Wad do you expect from a princess that does nothing at all at home?
Nothing but boredom.
All she wanted was to talk to someone.
Have a life.
Enjoy life like everyone else.

So she tot dat she could surf the net in the search for something new and interesting.
Suddenly, she heard a voice talking to her.
"Long hail the princess!" the voice said.
At first, the princess ignored the voice and continue her pointless surfing.
Clicking here. Clicking there. No intention to go anywhere.

"I see you are very bored," the voice spoke again.

"Don't disturb her! She is the most heartless princess in this town," cried another unknown voice.

The voices continued their arguments whether to help the princess or otherwise.
The princess could not stand those voices and finally screamed her lungs out.

"QUIET! What do you want from me?" the princess finally blurted out, trembled.

"I want you to be happy," the 1st voice said with utmost sincerity.

"Why?"

"Because I can sense your loneliness. You are a great person in nature. You are not selfish. Neither are you heartless. What kept you that way is because you are afraid of wad others might think of you. Forget abt yesterday. It will not come back. Dont think abt tomorrow. It will come. Think how you can change your life today so that your yesterday will be memorable and your tomorrow will unfold great oppurtunities."

Noone had said that in her life before.
The princess soon realised what has been keeping her away from happiness.
She still could not let go of her past.
Thus affected her today.
Therefore, dragging those feelings the following days of her life.

The princess was in dazed.
How true those words are.
But first, she wanted to let out her depressed feelings.
And think of happy things.

With full of awe, some words started to appear on her laptop magically.
It was...

icq.com/chat?

under..

international?

private chat with...

a guy?

hmm.. It all didnt make any sense at all!

"Remember, be aware of your surroundings. Listen to your heart," the voice chirped in happily.

The princess, who was in dazed, got a bit of shocked to hear a sudden voice re-appeared.
She looked around to find where it really came from.
To her dismay, it was gone.
Everything went back to normal.

The End.

So wad do u think of the story?
To let your inner feelings out?
To let go of your past?
Or to be aware of your surroundings?

You have the power to decide!

As for me, everything takes time to change.
Be it fast or slow.
One thing for sure,
'Always listen to your heart!'

My recent job

2007-08-11T20:29:00.000+08:00

Hey guys,
I feel very out of sync lately with the online world.
So pay back time.
More updates.
Of myself.
Well, at least this is wad the world's all abt.
Abt ourselves.
Rite?

Niwae cut the chase and go to the point.
Ive been waiting to write dis.
Not eagerly tho.
I lost to the lower sec ppl!
Both games!
Captain's ball AND floorball.
Maybe floorball I dont feel the misery.
But as for captain's ball; yeah to the max!
OK stop it Fizah.
You had ur time.
And it's time for those kids to have their time in life.
That is, to win.
Lol.
Exaggerating yeah?
As always.

Finally, to my frenz out dere,
I've been teaching for a couple of mths.
To be precise,
1 1/2 mths.
Don't be surprise, but,
Im teaching Malay.
Woah!
Wad a wrong subject to teach yeah?
But i shud feel grateful.
It's the only subject dat ppl dont put too much pressure on.
I got no probs with e kids.
No.
It sounds so wrong.
I got no prob wit e 'students'.
Students.
Yup.

Got pretty handsome guys out dere too..
Oops..
Juz hope that none of dem read my blog.
At least not this part tho.
They are 6 yrs younger den me!
Woah!
That is...
Actuali to be frank,
It's quite reasonable.
Not as if we're 15 yrs apart!
Duh~

Change subject.

I was browsing thru my frenster and my frens'.
I saw my very-1st-crush's frenster.
He was my pri 4 crush guy.
i stopped liking him wen i realise he was...
rude..
to me..
i tink..
But wen I saw him again..
Gosh..
Can someone remind me why i stopped liking him?

Nemind.
Shall stop here for the day.

Let me update the past...

2007-08-11T19:34:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since I took a look at my blog.

I mean...

Reali update it.

Let's start with the pizza hut day.

Hehe.

The only caption dat I can tink of.

Well, we finally went out!

It's damn right difficult to get a date for all of us to go out.

And have some fun, of course.

The only reasons we went out were;

1. We are supposed to retrieve our testis.

2. To spend the time together.

But more to the 1st reason tho..

But den again,

Deej ditched us.

Again.

Deej if u happen to read dis,

PLS make yourself free as much as possible.

At least for the days dat we planned out to go out k?

Niwae, skip dat part.

Gues how much we spent for the pizza's meal?

Lol..

The cheesy fondue fiesta meal.

Calamari.

Honey chicken.

Well, let's calculate it.

Around 5 bucks.

Yup, u see it rite!

The only reason was dat they served us 45min LATE!

Serve us rite..

Hehe.

Some photos to look at...

(By the way, Joan, U can give me any photos of us dat we had yea? Thx)

Me and Ain. Pple said we look alike. Nah. Go ahead and observe our differences. Ain got big lovely eyes yeah? See it for yourself!

Nad and Joan. As u can see, Joan is holding a camera. Was taking photos of us.

It was juz me taking photo of them taking photos of themselves. Gettit?

This was supposed to be one hilarious photo. Did u see a white speck at the tip of her hair. It was my chicken dat flung out from my mouth. Sound disgusting? Cant help it, but yeah it is! Fizah, never do dat again! Dont talk while eating. A lesson to be learnt...Lol..

Pizza hut day was on the 18th of July 2007.

2007-06-05T16:08:00.000+08:00

Rules from Bill Gates

To anyone with kids of any age, here's some advice.
Bill Gates recently gave
a speech at a High School about 11
things they did not and will not learn
in school. He talks about how feel-good, politically- correct teachings
created a generation of kids with no
concept of reality and how this
concept set them up for failure in the
real world.

Love him or hate him, he
sure hit the nail on the head with
this.

Rule 1: Life is not fair - get used toit.

Rule 2: The world won't care about
your self-esteem. The world will
expect you to accomplish something
BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule 3. You will not make $60,000 a
year right out of high school. You
won't be a vice-president with a carphone until you earn both.

Rule 4: If you think your teacher is
tough, wait till you get a boss.

Rule 5: Flipping burgers is not
beneath your dignity. Your
grandparents had a different word for
burger flipping - they called it
opportunity.

Rule 6: If you mess up, it's not your
parent's fault, so don't whine about
your mistakes, learn from them.

Rule 7: Before you were born, your
parents weren't as boring as they now
are. They got that way from paying
your bills, cleaning your clothes and
listening to you talk about how cool
you thought you were. So before you
save the rain forest from the
parasites your parent's generation
created, try delousing the closet in
your own room.

Rule 8: Your school may have done away
with winners and losers, but life HAS
NOT. In some schools they have
abolished failing grades and they'll
give you as MANY TIMES as you want to
get the right answer. This does not
bear the slightest resemblance to
ANYTHING in real life.

Rule 9: Life is not divided into
semesters. You don't get summers off
and very few employers are interested
in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that
on your own time.

Rule 10: Television is NOT real life.
In real life people actually have to
leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Rule 11: Be nice to nerds. Chances are
you'll end up working for one.

If you agree, pass it on. If you can
read this - thank a teacher. IF you're
not in jail or on the street - thank
your parents.

Nice rules, Bill Gates.
Never feel better.

2007-06-03T21:31:00.000+08:00

Just watched -
Pirates of the Caribbean:The Curse of the Black Pearl.
Had a good laugh.
Jack Sparrow.
Captain Jack Sparrow.
Johnny Depp.
He was damn good!
Now I feel like buying ALL the 3 movies.
That is, after the 3rd movie is out on dvds.
Haha.
Sad to say,
I havent watched the 3rd movie.

Shall put my fav guys here...

Captain Jack Sparrow - Look at how he portrays himself out. So full of confidence. He seems to be unbeatable.
As for this, extracted from The Curse of the Black Pearl, cant remember wad was he doin'. This is a smart face. I juz go gaga over smart, wise man. But besides the looks, he was reali good. His acting has quality, yeah?
Orlando Bloom. Innocent, honest and of course, georgeous guy. Wad makes him attractive, to me, is his goatie. It's nicely cut. Very neat.
Boldness. Will do anything to save his loved ones. This is the quality guys shud have. It juz make the gals feel more secured and haiz.. loved.

This is wad we call - full of conviction and determination. It means dat he knows wad he wants and is very driven towards his goal. To put it in one word - stability. Another thing that gals will definitely look for.

Wad am I blabbering about?

The type of guys I wish to have.

down to memory lane

2007-05-30T23:28:00.000+08:00

This was the Thursday nite meeting.
As you can see here, all of them are shagged. Juz finish their day from work and still have to come back for more trainings and meetings.

Redwoods dear members, tian, sankar and paul. They listening to...

...Adrian...

So did the rest. Tired yet listening attentively. Well, let me introduce Pru's new trainees, Jane and Davinia (from left to rite).

Aileen and karin...

I dont tink they know dat I took their pix.. Cant seem to be distracted.. (from left to rite: kelvin and aileen..again..)

Darren! The most lenient owner in the company. I mean he's not very strict at all. Telling us how team leaders are paid in Australia.

For my ex-colleagues who stepped down way earlier den me, karin is tian's trainee promoted to leadership.

The pix below were taken on the day I officially stepped down from the company. Memorable day, I should say. 19th of May 2007. Juz joking..

Hehe.. Me and kelvin..

Michael, Sankar and Clara. See?! Only Michael and Sankar seemed to notice me! Thx guys for the attention! Lol..

As u can see, Aileen oredi has a trainee called Phang. Both of them are Spore PR. They look sweet together tho..Maybe aileen might consider him..And not forgetting pru with a new trainee too. He seemed distracted (He's looking at me! Fee-weet!)

Davinia and the 'ultimate leader', Bernard.

This is wad we call - utilizing time to the fullest!

But then again, have a lil' bit o' fun will make the day! Am I rite, kelvin, amanda?Lol..

Farewell to my colleagues!

2007-05-20T15:45:00.000+08:00

Finally, I'm out of the job.
The company which I liked most.
They are so sweet.
My colleagues.
They actually brought a cake.
A farewell cake for me.
And Amanda.
Bernard's trainer.

I'm gonna miss them so much.
They wrote wishes for us.
"Best of luck in your studies"
Something like dat...

Luckily I managed to say my last wishes to them.
Ya lah.
I'm always nervous when it comes to speaking in public.
Or even to many people.
5 is considered as many.
There were around 13 of us.
If only I have the luxuries to speak more,
I will.
But then, Adrian got conference call.
So have to make it quick.
So I guess,
I juz continue from here.

To my colleagues:

[Adrian did mention dat I kept asking him to change me into FR.
When I was an admin.
Haha.
That was so true.
The reason was because,
i screwed up big time as an admin.
Haha.
Niwae, I love my job as an FR.
I want to be involved in meetings and learn a lot of things.
But most importantly,
I missed working with you guys.
I missed working with Bernard.
A guy who always give me a wider picture of how to get to where I want.
I missed working with people whom I always work with.]

[Now that I'm gone,
I'm gonna miss you guys so much.
You guys are the most active, open-minded, motivated and enthusiastic group.
You juz make my life more memorable each day.]

I didn't manage to give credits to the people that I respect most.
So, I'll just blog my way thru.

[Bernard, you are my aspiration.
Despite that you did not do well in SCB, you still find ways on how to get around it.
I’m really impressed at how hard you strived your way through.
I also heard that Club Rainbow wasn’t doing well in the beginning yeah?
When I heard you are the one who tried to find the common negatives that we face every day,
I’m truly amazed.
Honestly speaking, you are my turning point of my sales journey!
You are an asset to the company!
Niwae,
I thank you for all your advices]

[Prudence, what can I say.
You just proven to me that a girl with zero experience and hard to train can actually become an owner.
So I guess I still got a chance to be one.
Thank you for telling me upfront for the mistakes that I made without me realizing them.
It’s something that I treasure most.
It just makes me a better person each day.]

[Jas, my direct trainer.
Thank you for promoting me to Adrian.
Or else I wouldnt have met you guys.
Despite that I didnt see how u started off,
one thing for sure,
I was your longest trainee ever, rite?
And that is a great achievement.
I hope you could win that $1000 cash.
Not because I want you to treat me,
but because you deserve it.
It's been quite a well since you're in Cobragroup.
It's time for you to move on to higher level.
All the best to you!]

[Lastly Adrian, I couldnt thank you more.
For having to endure with my attitude.
Haha.
I'm reali sori to irritate you most of the times.
Especially during my admin days.
It must be reali hard for you yeah?
But I juz couldnt resist myself not to do it.
If I were you,
I will also feel fortunate to have someone like me to leave the company.
Lol.
Niwae I reali appreciate your advice.
I did follow your advice since the day I joined FR back.
As a matter fact,
you are the one that has the most impact on me.
That is, to listen.
It is the most valuable advice to me.
Thank you.]

Hmm...
I wonder am I able to work in another environment,
now that I met this kind of environment.
But then,
life still goes on.

Enjoy the music!
The one that we use it for bell-gong session...

2007-04-08T18:33:00.001+08:00

......

2007-03-30T23:01:00.000+08:00

HeY! HeY! HeY!
Today I did quite ok..
Something dat is definitely reasonable.
I wanted to lie to my boss dat,
we did badly..
But my trainer's trainer oredi told him.
So I juz said "I did ok.."
He muz be guessing im a bit demoralised.
Cos he told me to be positive.

For once,
I almost forgot why I like him;
Wen I was an FR.
But now im an FR again,
den i finally realise why I like him.
Again.
Maybe after I find a clearer reason as to why I like him,
den Ill type it down here.
For now I'm not in the mood to talk abt my boss.
Not bcos Ive grown to hate him again but bcos,
the topic today isnt abt him.

The topic today is abt retention rate.
Not reali abt retention rate.
But reason y I still stay on in dis company.
I totally agree with wad Joval had said in e morn.
The reasons as to why our parents/ wives/or whomever it may concern,
object us from working in the job.
One reason is bcos we're not bringing in enuff money.
2ndly, no basic salary.
3rdly, no CPF.
4thly, we showed them how unhappy we are.
Like duh!
Of course they object lah!

Let me tell u how I manage to stay in e company for so long.
Not reali long,
but reasonable-kinda long.

I was reali interested in doing business.
Like wad ive said in my previous post,
I juz don hav a biz plan yet.
But wad I wan 4 mths ago was a capital for myself.
Den my bro told me dat e highest pay u can earn was to be a salesperson.
I agreed.
Totally.
It's of unlimited earnings!
So I applied the job.
Sales and executive.
1st day I come, I have ZERO skepticism.
Cynicism is far from it.

I got to learn dat that it is a direct mktg company.
The one dat requires,
door-to-door sales,
events/ roadshows,
or even business-to-business sales.
Wadeva it is,
it requires us to meet face to face with customers.
Knocking doors.
Knocking into offices without appointments.
Saying hi to strangers.
Total strangers!
Actuali its sth not new to me.
Ive done it before bcos my late grandpa owned a shop.
So basically its a family biz.
We have to work despite dat I'm still so young.
I was only Pri 3 den.
But dat isnt e point.

If I were to ask the world a qn,
"hu want to do the job dat im doin?"
I'm very positive dat 90% will not raise up their hands.
It's tiring.
It makes u look like a desperado, asking for sales.
It's embarrassing.
Blah blah blah...

But dat is never a problem to me.
Like ive said, ive done dis before.
No prob for me.
To me, wad is important is to hit great sales.
This goal was set up by me.
If one managed to do so, it shows dat one can manage a biz in e near future.
Haha.
That is wad I was thinkin.
Maybe dat is the reason why I stayed.
I wasnt doing well.
So I wan to develop my sales strength in this company.
Weird?

I vowed to myself,
I will never quit dis job till I show myself dat im worth an asset.
I came with zero experience in sales.
I can only talk to people BUT NOT sell things to ppl.
Dere's a difference yeah!

So I gues, now u guys noe y I still stay in this company.

To be honest,
my mom objected to dis job.
But I keep telling her,
if u wan sth, u r willing to strive for it.
Even if it means to sacrifice ur time, money and energy.
I also told her that it's going to be short-term sacrifices.
Plus my enthusiasm in venturing in depth onto sales and marketing,
it juz made my mom wan to ignore me.
Gruntled at my stupidity.
Mocked at me.

Too bad for her.
Those remarks didnt affect me one bit!
I was oredi having great ambitions.
And I noe nth can stop me from achieving my dreams.

For 3wks since the day i joined i wasnt doing great sales.
I was doing residential.
It was hard cos ppl are not opening doors for me.
But once u get it, ull juz break it!
After I did a so-so sales, I was changed to events.
It was much much easier!
Dats where my sales went up.
Not fantastic, but sth.
300-400 bucks per wk.

With e reasonable amt of money I brought in,
along with my enthusiasm,
day by day,
my mom did not say much.
Now,
wen I told her I feel like quitting e job,
cos I wan to focus on e REAL future path for myself,
she got e cheek to ask me not to quit so early!
I was like dumbfounded for a split second.
But I oredi told my colleagues and my boss dat I wan to quit end of April!
Somewhere there lah.
Like so malu if I extend a bit longer.
Haha.

Mother. Mother.
They are a bunch of interesting ppl.
Gues Ill reach dat stage one day.

Since I'm in this job,
well I'm going to help my trainer get promoted to Stage 4.

2007-03-27T19:58:00.000+08:00

I noe blogging can be boring sometimes.
Most of the times.
Maybe.
To some people.
At least to me.
That's the reason why I don read ppl's blog.

However, what everyone doesnt mind doing is,
basically reading other ppl's blogs!
(The Jones theory)
I mean it only takes 2 min to read wad is written,
and best of all, im sure you gain sth;
be it in knowledge or understanding of ppl's life.
(Greed)
How long will the post last for us to read, we never know.
(Fear of Loss)
So it's best if we read it today to avoid missing wad was written.
(Sense of urgency)
Whether you want to read or not,
after all it's entirely up to u.
(Indifference method).
But of course, I thank you for reading my blog.

HAhahahaha...

That is wad I've learnt at my workplace.
Learning how to use the 5 impulse factors,
that make others want to buy or even read our products
or reading aticles.

To be honest,
I lurve my job.
Not exactly on the sales part but mostly as a whole.
The idea of getting ppl to buy your product,
wihout realising they are being impulsed by us,
I tink it is wonderful!
So I guess,
this IS the world of business marketing.

Writing a business plan isnt easy at all.
I realise that I have the methods of how to handle business,
talk to people of different styles;
from normal ppl to corporate level,
reading body language,
and lots more that evolve ard biz world.
However, getting ur business started is NO joke.
I tink I took like almost 5 months to reali have a focus!

Ok maybe I do have a business plan.
But how can I get the ball rolling?
Wad im tinking now is actuali on capital.
I'm workin.
No time to start small even.
Too bz to even tink abt it.
Now I noe y Robert T. Kiyosaki hates to be an employee.
Wudnt even touch on dat level.

Maybe I shud focus one thing at one time.
Study business management.
Den redo my business plan.
But as for now,
I juz plan 1st to see a brief idea on wad I've tot of.
Den can it be reviewed after I finish my studies.

Maybe I shud start on the process more,
in order to reach my goals.
Because after all,
my ultimate goal is to prepare the best for my retirement age.

Taurus!

2006-03-02T20:49:00.000+08:00

Getting dirty and breaking a sweat is what playing sports all about! You're going to play in a BIG sporting event soon, so don't hold back! Your awesome skillz will make you the MVP! - Taurus (2504)

Yup i'm having my SRC and National Tournament soon!

Gonna show them wad i gt!

U go gerl!

Horoscope

2006-02-27T17:17:00.000+08:00

TAURUS

According to bratz.com:

OMG! You're about to fall head over heels for a total cutie! It should be magical, but be careful at first and make sure he's feeling the same. Boys can be hard to figure out sometimes.

According to friendster.com:

The Bottom Line

To get a better perspective, you need to tell your problems to your friends -- soon.

In Detail

There's absolutely nothing like the company of kindred spirits -- as you well know. Thanks to the earthy, permanence-loving mood the heavens are in -- and their inspiration to put you in a similar frame of mind -- you'll have an insatiable urge to connect with like-minded others for something you know you can only get from them: camaraderie. There's also a distinct possibility that you'll come into contact with someone who'll end up being far more than just a friend. Wear red.

Well that's about it...

3 crushes..?

2006-02-26T00:47:00.000+08:00

I think i shall update my blog.

I'd juz read my archives.
It was erm...
More abt life.
And the people around me.
I guess,
its the only thing i can talk abt.
Abt me, myself and I.
To be honest,
my general knowledge is so below average.
Don't laugh.
Cos im trying to change.

While waiting for myself to be fully transformed into
a more matured gerl,
i juz wanna talk abt immature stuff.
(to some people, of course)
;-P
I got 3 crushes in the SAME sch!
My code for them is,
" Mr Potter, the Arab President"
Not goin to explain wad's dat.
It is meant to be a code.
A code only my sch mates know.
Not all.
But some.

It's funny to have crushes.
When you look at them,
you juz want to laugh.
Maybe not to most.
But yes to me.
Is it harmless to describe their characteristics?
Hmm...
I describe them aniwae.

The first one has the look of Daniel Radcliffe.
His specs tells me so.
But, the asian version of course.

The second one has the most handsome look.
Girls will surely go crazy abt him.
But a bit too snobbish-looking.
Typical boy behaviour.
You know.
Soccer freak.
Et cetera.
But still adorably gorgeous.

The third one has the intellectual look.
Smart.
Attentive.
Responsive (not responsible k?!).
Very smart.
Or maybe juz smart-looking.

But all of them have one thing in common.
Very neat and properly attired.
Not that i'm looking for a neat boy.
It so happen that they are always in a proper attire.
Even after SPE.
Unlike me.

Erm...
I'm not sure why it's funny,
but it's funny.
Maybe becos i adore them.
But not 'like them'.
Ahh.
Nvm.
Only smarties know the answer.

CCA DAY!

2006-01-06T12:57:00.000+08:00

CCA orientation.
Hmm.
Wadeva it is, i'm not in the mood.
I only did 3 articles for gp.
No mood to do dat too.

Niwae, my bro is in New Zealand.
Cool rite?!
Not for vacation lah.
For those army thingy.
Dont even try to ask.
I'm clueless when it comes to army stuff.
Dont bother to noe so.

Haiz.
I wish i can travel the whole world!
But maybe now isn't the rite time.
Juz wait when i'm old enough to travel on my own.
Or even with frends.

Gosh!
I'm jealous!
How i wish im the one waving others goodbye.

Wake up gerl!
*slap myself*
We hav to face reality.
Like..
NOW!
A level is driving me nuts.
Eh no.
Holiday assignments driving me MAD!
And i still got the cheek to update my post.
Hmph.

'Black
Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.'

Wow my true color is black!

I'M DEAD! REALY!

2006-01-03T12:33:00.000+08:00

I'm dead.
Really.

I havent been studying for the past 2 months.
Yalah.
Unwanted ceremonies held at home.
It keeps going on till on Sunday.
Yup.
We stopped last Sunday.

Assignments one thing.
Topical tests another thing.

No more 'top in class' for Maths.
Bad gerl.
Its not dat i mind.
But its wad the ppl ard me say.

Aniwae wads done cant be undone.

My resolutions:
1. Never slack this yr! Never!
2. Do all tutorials and assignments on time.
3. Attend all tutorials and lectures. Its a MUST!
4. Discipline myself. (No more following of moods)
5. Be attentive in all lectures and tutorials. (And I juz slept during physics lect!)
6. Erm.. Use all free periods to study OR sleep. (But must be more for study time!)
7. Lesser time spent lazing ard. (No merayap'g to any place after sch or weekends except going to the library.)

Guess that will be it!
Buck up Fizah!!

Bored

2005-12-20T18:22:00.000+08:00

im getting bored now...
niwae gonna terminate dis internet.
wanna change into starhub.
don noe wad's the diff.
don wan singnet n'more.

i cant bliv im reading lord of the rings bk.
part one.
like wad ive said, im bored...
but reali it was ok.
i watched the movie part one oreadi.
so i noe a bit of it ah..

i tink i better go back to where i start.
reading.
ta-da.

signing off,
wit loads of luv,
harry potter fanatic,
fizah ;-)

2005-11-23T15:14:00.000+08:00

exam's over.
school's over.
ramadhan's over.
even hari raya is over.
maybe not to all.
but yes to me.

grandad passed away.
14th nov 2005.
monday.
been bz as owaes.
now a lil' bit relaxed.

so many things happen dis yr.
as usual.
dat wad makes life interestin'.
not e separation of course.
things.
stuff.
i'll be promoted next yr.
surprisingly, ive made my resolution for 2006.
planning is my middle name.
;P

i never realise dat i miss softball.
unlike hockey.
i feel great to be in it.
to be committed.

dis is wad i feel:
first comes exposure.
followed by interest.
dere comes passion.
and soon ambition.

2005-10-18T13:43:00.001+08:00

Haha...
cant bliv i have to update dis for e sake of ma fren.
Niwae i update dis in sch.

Promos over.

well, dats not it.
i gt 2A n 1AO level passes.
take note: not grade A.
i nd 1 more AO pass to gt promoted.
i find it damn ridiculous lah!
i nd 1 more mark to pass my GP.
despite dat 51% failed their GP, nth was moderated.
so dat 44% comes from my hard-earned sweat.
y cant they juz push me up to a pass?
sometimes, i juz don understand tchers.
if it wudnt for GP, my ct wont nd to look at me like a kind.
she asked a reali stupid qn.
dat is:
"Do u want to gt promoted?!"
n i mean reali shouted at me n humiliated me in front of ma classmates.
i don mind e humiliation part but...
she exaggerated ALOT!!
i juz nd 1% to pass k?

but i gd news.
i was offered to take S paper for Maths.
look at e bright side of life i gues..

but there seem to be more dark den bright side of MY life.
i nd to buck up for physics.
despite dat i m one of e few ppl in my class dat passed it.
err...
i tink im contradicting myself.
there r still bright side of life for every dark ones.
...
u noe wad i mean rite?
wadeva.

okie dokie..
gotta go..
lotsa luv,
fizah

2005-10-18T13:43:00.000+08:00

2005-08-02T20:08:00.000+08:00

JC life is no game.
Is either u gt it or u dun.
Is not abt studying last min and rush things up.
It's more den dat.
It's abt perseverance and persistence.
It's abt surviving.
Life is abt surviving!

We nd tutors, guidance.
Dem to guide us thru thick and thin.
Juz for the sake of our preparation.
For our major exams.
So dun let it go to waste.
Use dem to earn all our certs.
Use dem to gain all e knowledge in dis world.
And treat dem with full of respect.

Its true dat they do gt on our nerves.
At times.
Most of the times to some.
But dun u guys ever think?
Why they always try to "get on ur nerves" - u call it?
Is it bcos they always ask abt ur assignments?
Is it bcos they always give u a moody face?
Is it bcos they despise u?
And trying to find ur fault at all times?
Is it bcos they do it delibrately?
Ask urself.
Think.
God give u brain to use it n think.

But think again.
Why trouble urself in defying ur tutors?
U wont gt anywhere.
So do e tutors.
The most dat cn hapen is dat the tutor will gt fired.
And u will hav a bad record.
How are u goin to gt a decent job with bad records?
Tell others dat ur testi is a lie?
U tink ppl will bliv u?
Fat hope!
Dis is a world where u hav to survive.
And its only temporary.
After all, everyon's goin' to face death.
So make dis world a peaceful place to live in.
Compromising is the key to success.

Think abt it.

Dragonboat race..!

2005-07-10T22:54:00.000+08:00

Here i am!
Bin wonderin' where i've gone too? I realised dat ppl out there DO read my blog. Haha.
Finali i did.

I've been reading harry potter bks for the past few days.
From e 1st bk till e fourth.
Goin' to e 5th one.
Cant wait to watch e fourth movie of harry potter!
Hope its of e same artistes.
Same Harry.
Same Ron.
Same Hermione.
I'm crazieee!
I tink its e side effects of post-exams.
Haha.

Niwae, Ill be participating e inter cca dragonboat race.
Cant wait too.
Gues wad..?
I'm having e rashes again.
Cos i wen for e practise.
The "rowing" practise.
It was pathetic.
Juz me, Nana, Lien, Vuisin, James, Huan geng and Darren.
But it was nice.
4-5 hrs later.
Red blotches started to appear.
It was horrendous.

Juz wait for one more day to survive.
And I tink i can do it.
Hope to win sumting for e race.
Cos we gt Arif.
And a few others wit strong arms.
We, softballers, do hav strong arms ok!
Hehe.
Not dat sure lah.

Monday's the day!
Here i come Kallang!

"I'm like dead, can." - Meiyi's line

2005-07-05T20:36:00.000+08:00

I don noe why im feeling so tensed. Ok fine. I noe why im feeling tense oryte.
My results.

I nvr felt dis way before. To be scared of facing the reality, the truth. Nothing but the truth. After wad ms ho said abt our geog, im feeling more depressed than ever. I was abt to hav faith in my physical geog. However, ms ho ruined it all. I juz hope dat my physical geog can pull geog altogether and get a C. Which i doubt so. Cos ms ho said dat some ppl wrote a lot but e content is 2 - 3 marks oni. Which spontaneously directed at me. Not dat she looked at me sum kind of a hell. But it suddenly directed at me cos i wrote damn long too but very irrelevant. Its not dat its irrelevant, but dere's too many to link up to each other.

For instance, U gave a very indirect ans. However in order to make it relevant to e qn, u hav to toss and turn e point dat u gt. So it will finali come to a conclusion dat ur ans is relevant. In order to do dat, it will take a long space in writing it down. Wad is worst was dat wen halfway thru you suddenly forgotten hw it gt linked up. And after a long para u'd done, u realised dat it juz wasnt e correct point dat u gave. And u juz cant erase it all away. Cos u noe u oreadi spent half the time writing it down. And given dat u were in a rush for time, u cant possibly leave it blank after all e "hard" work done (even tho' its not correct). Hence, u r stuck with e whole piece of paper dat u'd done - incorrectly. So I bet u guys will end up handing in e piece dat was full of rubbish instead of a blank one, rite? Cos u juz DON HAVE E TIME TO RE- EDIT IT!

So in other words its better den nothing, rite? Therefore, i gt dis bad feeling dat im one of the few dat gt a very low content-based marks. So i shudnt be hoping for a pass at all! For human geog of course. However, it does affect me psychologically. I cant remember how i did my physical. So im afraid dat i did e same mistake for physical geog too.

AAARGGHHH!!!

HELP ME!!!

2005-07-04T18:40:00.000+08:00

I'm not sure whether to rejoice over school re-open or to moan over it..

Reasons why I shud rejoice:
1. I cud stop doing house chores during weekdays
2. Can stop lazing around
3. Softball
4. Can get fit again (cos ive been lazing ard n didnt do a single workout!)
5. Can drool over e one guy dat i like

Reasons why i shud not:
1. Have to get up early in the morn
2. Have to iron my school uni
3. Have to rush to school - again
4. Meet tutors
5. Cant watch Jackie Chan and TMNT at 11am - 12pm

5 - 5.
Yupz.
Dats it.
Guess ill be going to school huh..?
Miss Jackie and the ninja turtles.
Cant wait for another LONG hols.
Haiz.

2005-07-01T16:15:00.000+08:00

CT's over.
3 days ago to be specific.
physics was the last paper i took.

CT 2005...
270605 - Geog paper
It was a tough one.
no.
not tough.
juz having trouble organizing 4 essays.
end up doing 3 out of 4 essays.
hope e tutors cn understand wat im trying to convey.
hoping for a C.
if not a D.
if not an E.
not aiming lower den dat..!

280605 - Maths
The happiest moment of my life.
i attempted all e qns.
hehe..
And the easiest too!
hoping for an A.
err...
juz A.
Aim and Achieve!
Wadeva...

290605 - Physics
Mr Yeo was there.
my civic's tutor last yr.
invigilated us.
satisfied.
cos i managed to do it with peace.
even tho i was slow in processing e solutions.
n didnt manage to finish all up.
but still satisfied.
cos i reali understand wad's happening.
hoping for a B.
if not a C.
stop here.

Now im having a problem.
but i tink i noe how to solve it.
juz giv me more time n i can solve it.

2005-06-20T20:11:00.000+08:00

How boring it is wen one starts studying.
K fine.
I'm bored here.
No.
I'm tired of reading.

1 wk more to common test and ill be freed once again! HAH! Kiddin'. I still gt a lot more to prepare for e next exam - PROMOS!

But first thing, i nd to claim my pay from my so-called workplace. Wat kinda attitude sey those ppl hav in dem! I mean they shud be havin dis responsibility to hand over my pay rite?! Great powers come along great responsibilities. Yeah rite.. Poor management spoils everythg! Wats e use of havin great "powers" if u cant fulfill ur responsibilities rite? Haiz.. Wat cn I sae..

I noe I hav e rights and all.. but not now lah.. nd to focus first den - protest! Haha. I gues i hav to go thru dis alone cos if were to do it wif other frens, gues i hav to do it now. To dem is now or nvr. and i cant deny dat cos the staff there hav been workin for months now and me... I'd stepped down last, last, last month i tink.

Actuali i gt nothing to protest abt. I tink i cn solve dis "case" diplomatically cos e case is on my side. So if there's anything dat my ex-boss wanted to sae, he juz cant. And wen i said he cant, he cant. If he happen to rebel wat i hav to sae den its too bad. I hav to start protesting which is very unlikely to happen.

So.. Yupz. Everything's in mind. Juz hav to wait for 10 days more.

Good things come to those who wait.

U-huh..

2005-06-14T16:59:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since i blogged. Ok fine.. Exaggeration...

Been bz lately.
Had to focus on grandma, the house chores, the arrival of Mama and EXAMS!
How stress can u b?
U tell me.
It hasnt been gd for me lately.
I'm not sure hw.
How to strive thru all of dis.
Tensions!
Hate it!

All commend patience, but none can endure to suffer.

And its true.

2005-06-09T14:49:00.000+08:00

Ouch! My legs hurt badly ah.. Its aching still from yesterdae's trg. I did e full squat like 4x15 times. So wat do u expect...? Had a hard time sitting down...

Speaking of yesterdae's trg, as usual i luv it.. But it was a bit tiring ah. And fun too! Esp abt e Li En thingy. Haha.. We shut her in the toilet and she had trouble getting out of e toilet. Hoe an and don helped farna n I by keepin' e door tight. I noe it was stoopid but it was -well - fun!

Nearing the end, we had to do some physical trg like sprinting, squatting and sum bat thingy - don noe wat it's called. All of these are to build up strength power so dat we cn bat e ball n hit home run! Haha.. W!

Den had sum watermelon. Out of e blue coach asked me whether i was in hockey before softball. After dat, he started to crap abt racism. But juz bcoz dere r a lot of mlys in hockey, ppl said dat they're racist. Well its true... thru our naked eyes... But we nvr noe e reasons behind dis so-called racism. Most ppl join bcoz of frens. Sum join out of pleasure n interest. While others - sumwhere out there - bcoz of race. Wateva it is, its their wish to do so. I cant stop dem, neither cn u!

Since each person, as an individual, is the not-being of the other, it is never possible to eliminate non-understanding completely.

They're comin home tmr! Cant wait...! Helped a bit wit e cooking todae with Nenek. And it was so0o leceh! Ok i don like to cook. Esp wen there's a lot of cookin to b done :).

Argh! I'm so0o tired~

2005-06-06T21:38:00.000+08:00

Got softball trg juz now... Haiz... They reali bought watermelon for all of us to eat so as to hydrate ourselves during breaks and after trg ends. Dis afternoon wasnt dat hot. In fact, it was a very fine breezy afternoon. Unlike our trgs in the morning. It will be thirst-quenching if they brought watermelon during those times. But from now onwards, i tink, we're goin to buy watermelon. How interesting! Lol...

I'm goin head over hills over dis guy. The crush dat I tot was over is not over - yet. Ok.. I still have a crush on him despite dat i stopped tokin abt him.. Now im starting all over again... Haiz! I cant bliv I stared at him for a few seconds!! I mean i juz stared at him without realising i was staring at him! Omg! But surprisingly he stared back for dat same moment. I hope he didnt tink dat im nutz for staring at him blankly.

I was in trance after dat...

4 days left for her return. I love you Mama. And Lala. Miss you guyz so0o much.

If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they dont, they never were.

2005-06-04T16:17:00.000+08:00

Shud I get myself worried over studies or not? I noe dis is my 2nd chance in yr 1 and I SHUD gt worried over it... But tink again, why shud I? I mean I shud not be panicked whenever exams are coming cos if i were to be panic-strickened, i'll be dead! Noe y? Wen i'm nervous, i cant tink n i cant study. So dats hw i manage to do my O's wondrously. Cos I kept myself calm and serene. Hey! Serenity is my middle name!

Ok, focus on my point... I haven studied geog and physics - YET. And its like 3 wks away from common test. Each time I wanted to do my work, i juz cant do it... Don noe y... Guess im afraid of failing again... Its juz a phobia i guess...

Peepz! Pls! Tell me wat shud i do...?

"While we are focusing on fear, worry or hate, it is not possible for us to be experiencing happiness, enthusiasm or love."

That's my principle of success...

"Ability is what you're capable of doing. Motivation determines what you do. Attitude detemines how well you do it."

It's all in the mind...

2005-06-02T19:45:00.000+08:00

Cant bliv im getting the rashes back! I tot I cn survive by joining softball... n I noe I can... Hmm.. I juz hope my skin will juz turn back to its normal state. This is wat happen wen one has eczema. The sweat produced by the body will juz irritate one's skin and makes it itchy. And I will owaes scratch it each time it gets ithcy. haiz.. I got no control of myself...

I wonder why I cant control myself... I cant aim properly, neither can i toss properly. And im tokin abt my softball trg here. I'm not sure whether todae's trg went well or not.. i gt compliments from coach as well as critics.

He complimented dat i can swing further and harder. In other words, trying to say dat i gt strong arms. And i cud oso hit home run if i were given more trgs.

However he oso said dat i toss atrociously! I cant even toss like a few centimetres away from e batter! Dat is totali horrendous! But e few tosses at the end, i managed to improvise myself. And i did. Juz dat coach didnt see me improved. so sad..

Well dats not e point... The point is dat i tink i'm feelin lonely.. I juz feel like breaking down now... There's sumting missing in my life but i cant figure out wat issit. I juz hate it wen i gt dis sensation!

I miss U, Mama. And I miss u too Lala. And I miss e holy place on earth, Mecca. And i'm crying.

2005-05-29T17:02:00.000+08:00

Hmm... finali i decided to post sumting here.

Today, I sent Mama, Lala and Eus to the airport. And not forgetting my cuz's family... Well, they were off to Saudi Arabia, which is the Jeddah first followed by Madina today. Wta can i sae... I'M SO0O LONELY! I'm gonna miz dem so0o much.. Without my Mom ard is like being in an empty hse. Empty and dilapidated hse. Hu's gonna yell at me? Put up jokes? Help me do my chores? I'm missing her so dearly... I wonder how m i goin to survive for 2 wks without her ard...

Hey grow up, Fizah! Yupz.. I shud reali GROW UP! I'm not an 8-yr-old kid, im 18 yrs old! 18 ok! But i still depend fully on my Mom... I mean im not workin yet. Neither hav i ended my education life yet. So its not wrong for missing my Mom rite?

Its ok.. I tink at least i can concentrate on my studies wen they're not ard. At least I can use the com 'almost' all to myself.. My 16-yr-old sis and I were left behind. We did not go for Umrah. Guess I'm the 'head' of the family for now lah. Wouldnt it be tough? HAiz.. I juz hav to go thru dis...

relax... I got onli 2 wks to go... I can survive... I tink...

2005-05-04T19:08:00.000+08:00

Hmm... We defeated e JJC. I don noe by hw many runs but we scored quite a few.. Thank God I scored 2 runs out of 3 bats. But it was reali my luck ah.. The pitcher damn horrible lah. Keep hitting our batters - and dat includes ME! In actual fact, I was relieved dat it hit me. I don hav to reali hit e ball. The bez part was dat i gt a free base! HEhe..

Like I said juz now, I scored 2 out of 3 runs. The last one wasnt reali my fault lah. Dis former TPJ guy wen there to "coach" us. He asked me to run to home base wen it was reali impossible. I was reluctant actuali to run to home coz I was damn tired lah.. I don tink I can manage a run. In the end i was kicked out wen i realised dat I was touched wen I step down to 3rd base. But i don feel bad coz... we WON the game! Hehe..

I also realised dat i didnt bat with my max. energy. Dat was horrible~

Another thing was dat, coach said to me dat if he cud do one thing, he wudnt wan me wear jersey no 13. Come on lah.. 13 is my fav no kz?! Basketball jersey - 13 (2 yrs kz..!). Class jersey - 13. And now softball jersey - 13! But i don exactly like jersey nos. dat gd players use. I prefer to hav sumting dat nobody wud ever tot of it. Well, I'm wrong... But for now, I reali luv my jersey no. Sori coach, I wont change! Lol..

Well, its a gd thing tho'. Dis trivial stuff cn reali motivate me to e max! I feel like puttin' a lot of effort in dis cca. And I wanna join ninja-do! Cant wait! Dis time rnd, I gt apretty gd reason to join. I mean for my own purpose lah. Not a reason for my mom to agree to it tho'.. Its ok fiz! U cn try. Nvr try, nvr noe rite? Hehe..

2005-05-01T16:11:00.000+08:00

We lost to RJ by 4 runs yesterday. But its ok coz we played gd. Dats wat evryone tot. And so did coach. But e bad news was dat, our principal cant be bothered to support our protest game wit NYJ. It looks like we oreadi lost to dem.. Which means dat we will gt in the 5th position among e six schs.. Haiz..

Wadeva it is.. I still gt nxt yr to improve on my skills.. Yupz.. don b disheartened fizah! U cn do it gal! -W!

Besides dat, I oreadi plan to join ninja-do in June. Cant wait seh! It'll be damn interesting I hope.. So I nd to save ma own money to do so.. Ma mom as usual, despise me joining sum guys' stuff. Well i wuldnt say its a guy's stuff. ill take it as a self-defense. Once i start my trg, gues i hav to start reschedule my self timetable. I nd to manage my time in order to pass my promos.

Pls let me pass!

2005-04-27T21:28:00.000+08:00

Juz came back frm softball match todae. Well... We lost to NJC by 1 run. However coach will wan a protest game. Cant bliv the umpire gt the chick to say dat he didnt see wat had happened. Let me tell U wat had happened! Tuty hit e ball and wanted to run to the 1st base. But gt tripped over the NJ's team player. It was pretty blatant obstruction lah! And the umpire closed one eye and cant b bothered abt it at all. So I hope we cn play against dem - again!

Sat we're havin' a match against RJC coz we oreadi postponed it - twice. I hope we cn win dat match. Coz last yr, we gt 3rd and RJ gt 4th position. It'll be a shame if we lost. Well, not exactly lah.. I don mind losing to RJC... BUT, I do mind losing to NJC. Dont ask me y but dats hw I feel lah. I'm beginnin to spark a huge interest towards softball now.. hmm.. Hw interestin'!

Next Wed will be against JJC. Hope we cn win dat too. Omg! Am I too ambitious?! I hope not.. I juz hav faith in my team members dats all. With Germaine and Jocelyn and Zhiao Ting ard... Btw, Germ hit home run twice or thrice. Isnt dat co0l? I wanna be like her. But she has e experience since sec 1! Unlike me.. I'm a basketball player previously.

I'm gonna do my bez for softball team. I'm goin to give all my heart out to dis Fri trg. Yes..

2005-04-25T14:38:00.000+08:00

Hapi bdae to me! Hapi bdae to me! Hapi bdae... Wateva!

Omg! I'm gettin older! Gues wat! Today's ma bdae...

I came to sch at 9 am. Or more precise at 9.35 am. I sent Fadz to e airport coz she was goin to vietnam for her sch stuff... To be frank im not quite sure her reasons for goin there. Well, if oni im in her position.. hehe.. Wouldnt dat be nice?Goin overseas w/o parents. Haha.. At the airport, I saw Sajeedah and Firdaus along too. They oso wanted to see her departure.

I was wearing home clothes and it was messy n untidy lah.. I rushed my way there! Oni to find out dat im not dat late at all! Haiz.. But its ok now.. Its over and done.

Immediately after I reached sch, I quickly changed into my sch uni and I realised dat I forgot to bring my shorts. Which resulted in the overflow of my *ehem* being so visible. So I decided to go home and skipped GP and maths. I'm so0o relieved now! Gosh! Wat a day seh...

Despite e bad parts, at least I gt to sit almost behind him in Geog lecture. hehe.. But my dearest classmates had to shout and greet me in front of him of my bdae today. I bet he noes dat im damn old lah.. Haiz.. Its ok.. I shud stop dreamin and focus more on my academics. Dats my resolution for my bdae wish! -lol..

Oh one more thing.. Cant bliv I saw a banner showing e Ninja-do trg sessions. It costs $25/$35 for 12 sessions/2 hr. I wanna join!! Its on Saturday 5-7 pm.. Iwannajoiniwannajoiniwannajoin!!

2005-04-23T08:48:00.000+08:00

Yoz!

Yesterdae I wen to e dancefest. Well I was wearing my class jersey n a baseball slacks. So inappropriate rite? I noe.. Juz had my softball match with Hwa Chong JC. Wat cn I sae...? They're damn gd ah.. No no no.. We r damn BAD! It looks like we do not hav team spirit. I mean wen I batted, I wasnt focus lah.. Ya lah.. I'm the reserve and I'd played e last inning of e game. And e game was kinda draggy. And my muscles had oreadi cooled down. So dats practically e excuses lah.

But 1 thing dat I did dat was reali stupid was dat i batted wen e ball thrown isnt nice. It landed on MY feet instead of MY body. Due to my stupidity, I had swung e bat which caused strike 1. Den 2. Den 3. There I go... I'm outta game. Stupid rite?! Wen I cn actuali gt a free base. Haiz...

Soon after dat, we gt a lecture from our coach den our captain. Haiz... Clean up e place (which I didnt do)..

Den I had a hard time decidin whether to go to e dancefest or not. I didnt bring extra clothes of course. Coz I tot its a waste of money goin there. But there's also a free dance at e end of dance competition which made me tink twice. So I stood at e entrance. And gues wat? I saw e guy dat I like enterin' e place. So I decided to buy e tix. Which caused me to borrow money from Jerald and Adam. Hehehe..

Well, e dancers were excellent! Cant imagine if I entered e competition huh..? I mean I cant dance DAT gd lah.. Besides dat, I danced with my galfrens, Adam, Jerald, Alex, Alvin... Hmm... Hu else? Yup and Ee han (its his name I tink). Lol.. He still call me Eeyong! Hahaha.. Wow! I had fun.

But I didnt gt to dance with him... Neither did I see him dance...

2005-04-19T23:45:00.000+08:00

Haiz... I saw him today with a pair of black rimmed specs. Well one more thin' I forgot to include is dat, he's tall. Reli tall lah.. Not as tall as e NBA players lah definitely.. ok wateva!

Besides dat, I tink its juz a crush... I hope so.. I tink.. I mean I don wish too hav a guy hu is a yr younger den me, dats for sure! But den again, I don mind if im a few mth older.. hehe.. Or he looks older. To me age doesnt matter much. Looks r impt tho'. I mean if u look younger but ur age doesnt said so, why matter much rite?

A guy, Yoke Yee's fren, came to sit with us in e sch lib. He said dat yoke yee looks like a J2 student. And wen I asked him hw do I look like, he said dat I look like a secondary student! Wat a joke man dat guy! But actuali rite... I was secretly hapi for myself lah! hahaha.. hu wudnt?! (^,^)

2005-04-18T23:25:00.000+08:00

Hey I tink I'm fallin' in luv wit a guy hu is a yr younger den me! So wat shud I do??

Even tho' he is a yr younger den me, he gt damn broad and muscular shoulders man! Omg! He's damn co0l. I mean anyone will feel like cuddling him seh... Each time I wan to do my tutorials or assignments, I will juz build sandcastles in e air. Dats bad sia...! Ok gal! Get a life man! And start improvin' on ur softball! National's has come n don disappoint urself! Go Fizah!!

Wateva...

2005-04-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

Went to queensway shoppin' centre todae. Oh man! It was damn far! Guess wat I bought?! A pair of boots and a shoe bag! Pathetic? I noe... Well I still haven bought a cap and a pair of socks...

Ok fine... I'm preparing myself for softball national competition. Even though I have a cap, I still wan a black cap... hehe... Oh yah! Besides dat, our softball match (for gals oni) with RJ was postponed... twice! RJC, well, is at Bishan and very desolated. I mean I cant see any shoppin' malls nearby or ppl playin basketball or soccer at e neighbourhood area. So... wat do u expect..? Dats not e point tho'... the point is dat our game was postponed twice bcoz it rained.. twice! Wat a bad environment for a super damn clever sch!

Thank God I chose tpjc as my first choice. Its my hometown btw.. Tampines rox man! hehe.. wateva lah..

2005-04-10T22:50:00.000+08:00

I'M TIRED! I'm tired in my mind, tired in my heart, tired in my soul... heard of dat before? Well for ur info, dis was "extracted" from the "sixth sense".

Erm... I dont purposely write dis down for the sake of writing it down. In fact its the truth. I've been workin like juz for a wk and now my mom askin me to quit. Why? I came home late dat nite. Wat a ridiculous way to say! I mean, Hello! I'm workin here! wat do u expect from sumone hu is workin? Of course comin home late is a sure thing to do. I dont intentionally goin' back home late.

I hate this man! How am I goin to say dat I'm steppin' down?! I mean i oni work like, a wk!

Hmm... Be optimistic. Dats it. I'm owaes an optimist, I tink. I hold strongly to dis - Every thing dat happens is a blessing in disguise. Well at least I cn do my geog tutorial. I mean I cn start being resourceful. Hehe...

Speaking of geog, I gt Ms He (pronounce as Ms Ho) for both human and physical geog! I cant bliv it man. But a student gotta do, wat a student gotta do, rite? Like bliv in it... I didnt noe dat I hav to do research on every particular tutorials! For science subs, U dont ND to do research. Nor do we nd to do essays. Why cant examiners be straight forward? Like wen they ask for the causes of a particular thing, they shuldnt juz stop there. They shuld b more specific in terms of wat they reali wan to noe.

Ms He said dat wen we see the words like causes, nature, blah blah blah... it means dat we hav to giv the causes as well as the elaboration and egs. wth! I didnt noe dat being in geog classes u hav to b resourceful at all times! Thank God I met Eizah and she told me dat. Haiz...

Dats it, I hav to do some research for now.

2005-04-06T20:13:00.000+08:00

I went hm from softball at 6.30pm today. Surprisingly, I didnt miss a single ball wen batting! Dat was a great achievement for me. I hope dat I cn throw balls at wider range. My hands are weak!! I mean, I gt weak hands since young. Never train my arms. Dont wan to.

Besides dat, I wan to enter the school competition which will be held in April. Err... Very soon I tink. I cant deny dat many of the girls are improving. And I'm tokin' abt the year 1s here. Year 2s will definitely be better off den the year 1s of course. Unless she's reali a bad player. But at the same time, there are too little girls in softball. Maybe ard 15 or so... I wonder how many players do they nd... hmm...

We have a catcher, 2 pitchers,base 1, 2 and 3 and outfielders. Do u tink its enuff? Lemme see... 2 catchers, 2 pitchers, 3 infielders, 3 outfielders, 6 batters (bcoz there r 6 innings, i tink). But of course one can be either both of the roles. Like the base 1 will definitely be one of the batters wen its our innings. Argh! Will I ever gt into e game?!?

Wateva it is, I'm gonna do my bez...

Oh yah! After softball, I played hockey for a VERY short while. I mean juz a few shots and dats it. Well I stopped wen Samad came. Cant bliv my hockey frens stopped me from playing wen they saw Samad! They said dat he dont like me from playin hockey. Wateva lah dat guy! I didnt noe dat joinin' softball and stepping down from hockey cn create a conflict! This is preposterous!

2005-04-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

HeY heY heY!!

I got a new class! Ok fine.. There's nothin to gt enthu for... Well im in a weird-combi class, so im in a 2nd last class. 05S35. The '88 batch, i tink, is the baby boom yr. Hmmm.... Wat else cn i say? I don even recognise like half of my classmates. hehehe...

But its ok... Gonna find out more later... Yupz...

2005-03-16T15:12:00.000+08:00

Haiz... My mom n sis will be goin' to Saudi Arabia for Umrah - AGAIN! Too bad dat im not goin' to ag along with 'em. Bliv me, dat place is kinda co0l. As we all noe, jazeerah Arabia are rich in oil. So its kinda nothin' to 'em if the whole place light up.

I can neva forget my days there. In Mecca, the janitors used machine to mop or clean to whole vicinity in the masjidil haram. They used mops dat are attached to a car, and drove them all ard the mosque. Mind u, the mosque is damn big!

Wateva it is, I prefer Madina. They got frenly pple there n all... Mecca is a city while Madina is more like a country place. Maybe dats the difference between Madina and Mecca. Pple from other countries com eto Mecca to trade while pple go to Madina to spent their hols there. I'm not tokin' abt this century. I was talkin' abt centuries ago wen prophets and kings and queens existed. Mecca was visited by traders and all... Some wen there for hajj and umrah too... Madina was different dat time. Its a place where their own nation lived there.

The history of Madina and Mecca will owaes excite me. It gets interesting wen my t'chers told us abt our prophets hu lived way before us. How they managed to survive in a world of critisicm and pure hatred and barbarity. Haiz....

Well that's not the point though... Wat I'm tryin to say is dat, im gonna miss dat magnificent place. Coz I wont be goin' there with my mom and sis. Haiz...

2005-03-12T22:05:00.000+08:00

HeY heY heY!
I wEnT t0 s0fTbaLL fRenLy maTch juz n0w. 0k, iF I weRe t0 c0unT in t0daY's maTch, d!s wiL bE mY 3rD daY sinCe I j0in !t. I neVer ToT daT iT cLd bE reaLi inTeresTinG! Erm.. It cLd bE boRinG 4 sUm ppLe hu d0 n0t haV a slighTesT inTeresT in iT. And aS 4 mE, I hAd a "eDucati0naL tRip" waTchin' mY teaM memberS pLayed. BoTh guYs & g!rLs...

FinaLi I maNageD t0 undeRtanD e gaMe. Its not daT touGh anIwaE... InfacT, iTs DAMN siMpL3 LaH! U waN me t0 x-pLain tHe waY oF pLaYin' s0ftbaLL? weLL, maYbe neXt tiMe... Its kinda w0rdY iF I eveR x-pLain iT heRe. But 0nCe u gt iT, u'LL geT e hang oF iT.

PpLe miGht bE woNdeRin' wHy I quIt h0CkeY aNd j0iN s0fTbaLL... And iM t0King abT mY TPJC's fRenS 0uT theRe. ThoSe hu oWaes haNg 0uT wiTh mE wiLL undeRsTand wHy...

H0cKeY is a niCe gaMe, I caNt deNy. But aT tHe saMe tiMe itS a veRy hoT aNd teDioUs gaMe. The trG scHeduLe os0 d0esNt fiT inTo mY perSonaL scHeduLe. Can U imaGine haVin' trGs 5 tiMes a wK? MoN, WeD, ThuRs, SaT & SuN. Mon aNd weD noRmaL trGs, ThuRs is e 3 km ruN whiLe saT aNd SuN aRe for maTches.TiRing aNd deFiniTeLy baD f0r mY skiN.

UnLikE hoCkeY, s0fTbaLL is kinDa sLack. MucH mucH lesSer ruNninG anD LittLe tiMe c0nSumed f0r sofTbaLL. IsnT daT niCe? TwiCe a wk oF trG pLus t0daY and nExT wk frenLy maTch f0r m0Re exPosuRe to newcoMers aS weLL as iMproviSinG thE seNiors sKiLLs 0n sofTbaLL. iTs undeNiabLy co0L aS iT reaLi g0T me foCus inTenSeLy.

weLL beSides daT, I owaEs waTch niNjas pLayinG sofTbaLL aS theIr paStiMes. My inTeRest towaRds niNja maDe me liKe s0ftbaLL. HeHe... (",)

2005-03-10T16:18:00.000+08:00

Oh no! mY mum's sick! I hate it wen mothers are sick. U wanna noe why? They cant do household chores and cook for her children. Haiz... For once our situation isnt any better. Thats when I will hav a HUGE responsibility afterward!

And as u noe me, im easily offended. I get angry easily too. Thats 10 times even worst! U will be wonderin wat does household chores got to do with offences, rite? Here it goes...

Actuali I was given a responsibility to clean up the house, like sweeping the floor, folding the clothes, and of course make the bed (mind U! Its not an ez job k?!). Wen I say sweep the floor, I mean the whole house. Not just the living room, or my room, or other rooms- but the whole thing! That is my job... as the eldest sister... but not the oldest though... Ok I can still take it.. But what I cant take it is wen im supposed to help my grandma do some cookin. Infact, I hate it the most wen she's in the kitchen! Instead of helpin with the cookin, I hav to wash the dishes n et cetera.

Well I juz cant stand it doin other pple's job. But, my grandma will nag if I didnt do wat I was told to do. And dat definitely put on tension in the hse! Of course, my mum will side her. I mean grandma is her mum n being a filial daughter, she has to do dat aniwae.

Arrghh!! As usual, sumone ALWAYS have to interfere wat im doin rite now!! Dat is one of the reason I juz cant complete my story here. I gues I will never hav the time to do anythin dat I wan to do... Haiz...

Till here... Chiowz...

2005-02-23T19:18:00.000+08:00

HeY! I wEnt f0r pE t0daY! FinaLi mAn...hEhE...

bEsidEs dAt, I skiPpEd phY And mAthS tuToriaLs..sExY nAughtY biTchY mE! hAhA...I t0Ld AdriAn tAn dAt I wEnt f0r mAths N phY. unf0rtunAteLY mY sEcrEt wAs unLeAshEd! All bc0z 0f mY L0veLY cLasSmAtEs...

thE st0rY g0es L!kE diS...

mE N nAd dEcidEd to sk!p tuT0r!aLs s!ncE wE'd 0reAd! sk!ppEd maLaY. n!wAe I d!dnT pLan t0 tAke maLaY afTer thE 1st 3 mThs c0ursE. gT 2 pEri0ds frEe. s0 wEnt t0 CS t0 buY r!ngS f0r nAd N hEr bF. thE!r AnniversArY !s aRd e c0rnEr. s0 ! acc0mpAny hEr. I knEw dAt thE gErLs !n mA cLasS w0uLd n0t go f0r thE!r mAthS N GP tuT0r!aLs. s0 wEn GP LesS0n stArtEd, thErE R , 0f c0urSe, mAny AbsentEes. And thEref0rE hE wAs unhAppY Abt 0uR AttEndAncE. And s0 hE AskEd whEther d!s g0es e sAme f0r 0thEr LesSons. weLL theY bLurtEd 0uT thE truTh. thEy t0Ld h!m dAt iT wAs thE sAmE buT excLude thE 2 0f uS. L!ke dUh~ hU !s thE 2 dAt r 0dd bEsidEs e 2 0f uS, nAd n mE? dAt tAN st!LL gT e chEek t0 teLL e guYs n0t t0 p!np0!nT 0thErs. hE juZ sm!Led At uS. aS a mAttEr 0f fAct, hE sAw mE shuSh!ng t0 thE guYs to kEep thEir m0uth shuT. 0h shEesh! wAt a dAy... t0 th!nk dAt !'m cLevEr buT howEver g0t 0uTsmArtEd bY mA y0unG anD inteLLegEnt tuT0r...

h0wevEr dAt isnT aN impT !ssuE. wAt iS fArm0st impT is t0 gEt a B3 f0r GP. buT h0w? I d0n n0e..

2005-02-17T13:04:00.000+08:00

I miss hockey!!!

2005-02-08T20:30:00.000+08:00

1st of all, I wanna greet those Chinese a hapi new yr. Its a gd thing that we live in a multi racial country. Wanna noe y? We can hav lotsa lotsa hols! hehe...

But for those hu r malays, do u realise that our hari raya haji or hari raya puasa will owaes be a one-day holiday? So unfair rite? Well i tink its reali unfair to those like me. I tot govt practiced fairness.

So ani1 wans to protest abt this issue? haha... better dont... U will get in trouble more than benefited from it. wateva lah... im tokin' crap here... I tink im goin to make my jc life the lifeless yr... And convince myself that I onli hav to spent 22 mths in college. And dats it, go to university. And start anew...

chiowz...

2005-02-06T10:27:00.001+08:00

Mornin'!

I can't bliv dat I missed the bus! I'm supposed to go for my religious open-class today at 9.30am. But then of course i was late by 20 min i guess... I didn't realise dat my watch is damn slow! I tot I was damn early... Ya rite! Way to go fizah! I guess next yr i should make a resolution not to be late for anything AND everything. And set my watch according to 1711 {it is the number that check the timezone in any country we want - go and hav a try ;) }

Besides dat, my class is 05S19. Well I've changed my combi i.e. physics, maths and geog. But im still in a chem phy class coz i chose that combi in the beginnin of the yr soo..im stuck in the class for the 1st intake. people said dat its a weird combi. But I don tink so... wats so weird abt it? I mean geog and phy are somehow inter-related. Err... I mean the physical geog is inter-related to phy. my wish is to go to NTU to take engineering. In order to go there, I have to take phy n maths. However we students hav to take 3 A level subjects the minimum. So instead of taking a deathly subject, chem, might as well i take sumting dat im interested at. true?

There r 2 news to b heard; gd n bad.for the good news, im finali outta Mrs Lee's sight! She's like one of the wicked witches we usuali see on tv. If onli I gt a teacher like Mr Jeremy Choong, the tall, handsome and who has a gd posture, I wouldnt hav drop Chem.

Well the bad news is dat the chem teacher will despise u forever! when i say foreva, it means for eternity! I cant bliv that she told almost half the staff dat im an attitude-problematic student, hu will skip classes if she wans to, slacker and so forth. hate her man!

I hope im not late too make resolution for myself. my resolution for this yr is to be a goody-two-shoe adn keep a damn low low profile. dats it, im done.

2005-01-29T20:04:00.000+08:00

My wish for today is to delete my blog. Issit a gd idea to do so? Haiz....

2005-01-09T16:35:00.000+08:00

Ha-loo guys! Its been a long time since i blog. So wanna wish everyone a... HAPI NEW YR! erm..belated one of course.

I've been bz almost everyday! I don noe y... hmm... very strange... coz its not as if i gt heavy workloads to do. I wan to get serious on my sch work from now on. Well i planned my schedule a month ago. Much to my disappointment, I didnt reali follow my schedule. But i still did some of the revision. Now its Jan. i wanna start a new chapter in my life. I was a slacker previously so I wouldnt wan to hav dat kind of attitude. But for the first few days in my sch, I realize dat i was a slacker... Haiz... wassup wit me man?! I skipped orientation. Sat outside ODAC reading MANJA. And go to J2's lectures for Maths and Phy.. I did go for one introductory lessons and dat was Maths. But i ended up outside ODAC again after 20 mins in Audi.. Maybe im kinda upset. Dismay. Disturbed. Distract. Distress. Wateva...

oklah... dats it.. i have to clean up the mess now... As usual... now im prattling non-stop... haiz...

2004-12-13T16:12:00.000+08:00

Hehehe.. Let's continue my journey at OBS.. Issit very draggy? Erm... Sori if it is coz i dun tink so.. Whakakakakaka... Honestly speaking, I'm reali enjoying myself there k?! Start from the 3rd day rite? Hmm... After the raft-making, we went for a rest. Then realised that the whole place was meant for us, Kurt and Bo Seng. Weee! We slept at the same place as yesterday's. Just that the place was ONLY for us! Hahaha.. As usual we had to pitch our bashar. Dis time round Me,Izuan,Eliah,Taha,Naseer,Wei Shiong(sori if it is spelled wrongly), and last but not least our ping pong man....Caleb!! Hahaha...We pitched our bashar next to each other,laid 2 ground sheets in front of our bashar. Den we looked up to the sky and watched the stars moved from the east to the west. But later on, we soon drifted off to sleep...haiz.. Always sleepy.. However when I woke up from my sleep, I realised that I was in the bashar. Everyone was in their bashar tho'.

But forget abt that...

Hmm... I forget to tell ya our nite in the middle of pitching our bashar and drifting off to sleep. As usual Belinda cooked for us dinner.. And as usual we had to wash our utensils and cleaned up the trash we made. And as usual again, our instructors had to check our place to ensure "cleanliness in the environment". We did a marvellous job den, and Belinda shared a "horror" story with Kurt and Bo Seng... I can't bliv dat i've shouted at the suspend ending... Argh!! I'm not a scaredy cat ok?! but honestly speaking, I'm not. Reali. And the day passed us...

4th day... We woke up at 4.30 am.. More like I woke up at 4.30 and wake everyone up... We had to canoe our way back to our 1st campsite.. Whoopee!! But before that we started our daily routine that is, sharing our tots... Blah..Blah..Blah.. Den we started canoeing at ard 8 sumting.. Hahaha... Can't bliv we reali rejected Taha from following us to the same boat! Erm.. Sori to say dis but he was reali acting like a supervisor! He even told me dat i wasn't in sync wit the rest wen comes to rowing. Like duh~ there's a huge current comin to us or its juz dat I missed by one step which made me unsynchronized! Wat makes me mad is dat he wasn't even rowing and still got the cheek to giv comments! Well I juz kept my mouth shut thru out the journey.. Can't be bothered abt arguing back.. That's it! Stop talking abt others!! Hehe.. Hey we reached there damn early! At ard 11 sumting near to 12. We cleaned the boat den took our stuff to the storeroom. Then we ate our food ration dat was left coz there won't be any lunch for us. So... I took the opportunity to bathe! Hahaha.. Finali I felt so0o clean and fresh! After dat we had to meet our instructors again for our own evening PT. Haiz.. First our warm ups done by Jackson, Caleb and dat's all i guess... Hahaha..Caleb can tahan oso ah..Jackson..err..we reali burst out laughing man!! He was reali funny but I don tink he was humiliated even it was meant for humiliation by our laughter! Lol! Den we played captain's ball. Kurt vs bo Seng...It was a draw, 3-3. I still tink Kurt should have won if it wasn't for Caleb being so calculative! Lol.. Next we ran for 5.3 km thru the jungle. Woah! Never have tot that everyone can run without reali stopping for a breath except for me lah.. I was havin stomachache..sheesh.. i missed the chance to run all my heart out..if it wasn't for my stomachache! Den went for our dinner. Den meet again at poodac (don't ask me where) and Belinda led us to one of the jetty. We hav a reali long "farewell-like" talk. It was reali sad tho to finali leave the place after a long bitter journey together. Den we went off to sleep. We didn't reali sleep lah.. But officially went off to sleep.. As for me I slept with Aisyah in her watch's storeroom.. Hehe... Missed her so much on dat day... Den we slept... Truly asleep..

5th day... We had our morn Pt at 5.55 am.. Lol! Guess back to normal like our first day since there r no travelling outside the Obs campsite.. Had our breakfast.. Den we played a game. Dis game is so specialized for SJAB. We had to bring the stretcher from one end to another long end to save a patient in an hour. We must stand on the log or else we have to go back to square one. But afterall, both grps didn't manage to win it.. Lol! But all of us felt satisfied coz they strived reali hard to win..juz dat they didn't win.. Next we went to the jetty! Dis is wen the bez part of all days. We had to jump over the jetty into the sea and shout out our ethics, or our commitment in life.. And I fear of heights..But! I managed to jump down over the jetty.. It was a great achievement for me. Later we packed our stuff, went to a room and received our certs, den to souvenior shop and lastly, to eat our lunch...

That was when we had to be separated from our watch members.. It was reali sad after the 5 days of bitterness... I hug Belinda and said farewell to Yong Kang.. And here I am.. At home.. Everything back to normal!

I'm bAck!!

2004-12-11T01:27:00.000+08:00

Helloooo guys! I juz came back from ma OBS camp..the campsite number one..hehe.. Wat can I say abt the camp? Hmm.. I MISS MY FRENS FROM PRC AND MY WONDERFUL INSTRUCTOR, BELINDA AND YONG KANG! If oni they can read my blog... Haiz.. Its reali too much to say abt dis camp. Its the "besttest" camp in my whole life. But my sec 2 camp its still quite memorable tho'...

1st day of camp we met everyone from our sch (oni sports cca). Den after the talk from Mr Samad, we took off and reached the punggol jetty there. Den we take ferry lah. Like duh~ Finally we reached the campsite.. It was a great feelin wen i entered that campsite. I was feeling very euphoric den. Reached there we assembled at the mph and were divided into grps.. Mine is KURT!! Baik kurt! hehe.. Met the PRC (People republic of China- If im not wrong lah)..We did the 3 diff handshakes. Den went to meet our "date" with other watch grps. We played a game. Den ate our lunch. Soon we were oreadi in the store room. I was the IC (in charge) for the first day. We took our necessary stuff like harness and helmets and bashar equipments to pitch our bashar later. We learnt how to make incredible knots to tie the the blue tarps to the stick (niwae i tink im pro oreadi-hehe). We supposed to climb the rock wall but bcoz there r no vacancy for us, we had to tour ard the camp. Dat was DAMN boring! Kim Chuan our part-time instructor was so serious so I oso made a serious face as if im realii listening to me wen actuali my mind was drifting away. Finalli we did the rock climbing. As usual im bad at it coz i got sweaty palms. Keep slipping off lah.. We ended everythng at 7.40pm -somewhere there lah.. Ate our dinner and wen to mph again to listen to somewat like health talk from sumone I don noe. I wasn't reali payin attention coz i was bz tokin to aisyah. We missed eath other since we are separated. Hehe..

2nd day..We woke up at 5.55am for our PT. We did some reasonable exercise n oso the nonsensical ones.. After dat we went for breakfast. I burnt my tongue due to the H-O-T-T, hott milo!! OUCH! Den we had to pack our stuff to canoe the boat to Pulau Ubin 2nd campsite. Can't remember wat it's called.. We paddled for 15 km to reach there. Finali we reached our destination at 7 sumting which was quite dark. Den we had to pitch the bashar in the gloomy dark. There was basically no stars at all! Den Belinda cooked dinner for us. It was maggi mi with mushroom. Den we put our utensils one side. So wat do u expect? A lecture from Belinda and Yong Kang... So we corrected our things and soon drifted off to sleep.

3rd day.. We woke at 6.30am. Dat was the longest nite ever! Everyone hu sailed to dat camp were packing their stuff while we were abt to unpitch our bashar.By the time we were cleaning our stuff, the rest had oreadi set sailed! Haiz we were left behind...But we did not have to row our boats. Instead we sat in circle and shared our tots wit each other. Den Belinda n Yong Kang share their items wit us like true stories and quotations for dat day. Den we went for hiking to Pulau Ubin Village and learnt a lot abt nature. After goin back and fro to our camp, we had our lunch followed by the raft-making. Kurt vs Bo Seng! Yeah! We won dat coz we completed it first. It turned out to be excellent and outstanding!! No bluff k?! After the raft-making, I can't reali remember.. So I'll be continuing the story maybe tmr k? ;P

2004-11-30T07:16:00.001+08:00

Finally i can get the hold of the com! Well i juz recovered from hockey yesterday. Mr Samad reali pushed us hard. Actuali I'm kinda unfit rite now. If I can show a graph here on my stamina, u will see a very sharp point falling down. This tells us, I mean me, dat my stamina is in pretty bad condition. Buck up fizah! Firstly, Mr Samad said that im in the world of my own. Coz i didnt listen to wat he said. To be honest here, i cant see my mistakes in dribbling the ball. Hehe. But after he told me why, i still tink it isnt a big deal tho..Yesterday's hockey, he told me dat evrythng is about attitude and blah blah blah..So i gues he's trying to say dat i got attitude probs. Aiyoh! Still got time to critic me seh...We were parnerted togedder during the passing and receiving of ball thru the cones. Hmm..Wat is there for me to say? I was tired already. He didn't giv us the chance to stop and hav a break.. Fine.. Why am i complaining btw? Niwae its my fault overall for not practising at home and since my stamina drops drastically I'll get tired easily for sure..Haiz.. Can't blame me rite for dat? This is wen Eileen my fren comes in handy. Haha. Eileen!! I nd to run and I nd U to help me in dat! And this is still our hari raya season wat?! How the heck can i get the time to train on my stamina? Gues I hav to work on dat too...

Hate maseLf !!

2004-11-19T13:03:00.000+08:00

I haTe mAseLf !! Ma results are atrocious! Wat can I say...i juz met ma principal and damn I hate her man! She is one abnoxious person i tell ya... The one dat never listens to others... Well i maself isn't dat good either.. Did not study as hard as I supposed to do.. But no use crying over spilt milk.. wats done couldn't be undone.. If I had to retain den I have to.. But from now onwards, i'm not goin to disappoint maself for the second time.. gonna work extra harder dis time round.. If possible I wan to get superb results next year in year 1.. I wanna be the bez among the bez and not the bez among the worst... Dis is a promise...

2004-11-17T17:02:00.000+08:00

kekekekkeke...I'm watchin S'pore Idol...the first audition..wakakakakakakkakaka...cannot the tahan lehz..haiz..u guyz still remember the "lemon tree". I wonder how i wonder why..yesterday u told me about the blue blue sky..and all dat i can see is juz the yellow lemon treeeee....wakakakakaka..and i wonder i wonder i wonder how i wonder why.......and all dat i can see...and all dat i can see..and all dat i can see is juz a yellow lemon treeeee...nice move kelvin!! hahakz...k fine...im soOo bad huh?wakakakka..

wateva it is...taufik will be ma idol..haiz..still remember the first audition he went to?they said he was arrogant and over-confidence..Well does it matter?wat matter most is his talent. den followed by his fans. Not the personal grudges the judges have against him..i almost tot dat they are discriminating the Malays. However he finalli got into the audition..yipee! soOo its not a surprise to see him in the top 3. U go Taufik!

SelAmat BerhAri rAya

2004-11-12T22:27:00.000+08:00

Yay!! im done wit my painting..haha..Get ready to celebrate! Marhaban Ya Marhaban Ya Syawal..hehe..

Keinsafan Di Hari Raya

Bila Ramadhan menjelma
Kita pun menyambut bulan puasa
Dengan penuh kesedaran
Serta keinsafan kita puasa
Syukur pada Yang Maha Esa
Di atas segala pemberian Nya

Kini syawal pun menjelma
Kita bergembira meraikannya
Dengan pakaian yang indah
Di dalam suasana sungguh meriah
Zakat fitrah jangan di lupa
Tanda kita bersaudara
Insan yang mulia

Di... dalam suasana takbir bergema
Kita bersyukur
Di... atas rahmat Nya
Dengan segala puji bagi Nya
Insaflah kita di hari raya
Hari mulia

WaT a Day...

2004-11-10T20:41:00.000+08:00

Oh no! I'm in a great trouble!! First thng, my bro discovered dat im in contact wit guyz..there r 2 whom i sms. Hafiz and Rahman..im not a gerl hu has no moral values.Am NOT bitchy, flirty n a bimbo k?I got pride too..Fine! Maybe its me hu make thngs worse..its true dat i msg dem back..but reali we got nothin to do wit each other..we r juz frens..not more den dat..
But how can i explain dat to my mum and especially my bro?!there's nothin dat i can help to defend myself..sob..sob..All bcoz i msg dem not once but A LOT of times..Dats it..i giv up..there's no more hope for me i gues..i lost their trust...i'll end here..

BreAk fAst....

2004-11-09T22:55:00.000+08:00

Breaking fast with frens can be reali entertaining..But actuali dere's more to it..

Today was e day i finali break fast with ma frens..Well i got to walk ard geylang for the first time dis yr..i was wearing p.e. tshirt and jeans coz i juz gt back frm hockey.

Speaking of hockey..it was nice..nice..nice...but tiring ah..as usual ah..Im lacking of sleep!!

Durin my walk there, I saw too much of maksiats..i hate dat reali! dats me..I went out wif fadz,dewi,ana,nazirah,azmi n of course hafiz..yes we were hav'g quite a lot of fun but bcuz of the environment dis will be the first n the last day ill be goin out wif frens..i reached home late (in my mom's philosophy)..its kinda difficult to get ur mother's trust at times..and nobody wud wan to break dat trust..haiz..dis is life wen u're a gerl..

TireD aS oWaeS....

2004-11-08T20:18:00.000+08:00

Hmm...i've juz scolded ma sis..wakakakakakaka....fine im a bad gerl..cant bliv ma grandma still wakes me up in the dawn even tho she noes dat im not fasting..she's afraid dat ill go starve and sick during the day coz i didn't eat.Com'on i got great energies k?Im a strong gerl..hehe..

I'm reali tired nowadays...its all bcoz of cleaning the hse chores again and again.Dis is wat happens wen u got a toddler at hm.All she noes is to mess up the hse.Argh!!Besides dat i oso painted the hse.Finali i continue painting.haha..Painting is not an easy job!U hav to cram ur neck to look up to ceiling while holding the bulky roller to paint the hse.See?! Tiring rite?!

Wenever there's a bad moment, there's owaes a gd one too.Finally my mom allows me to go out to break fast wit ma fren (even tho im not fasting..hehe..). Being a gerl in the family,esp wen ure the oldest gerl among ur siblings, i tend to hav dis kind of probs a lot of times!Dat is, goin out with frens..there owaes be objections!

But thank God dsi time round im allowed to go out wit ma frens.Im goin to meet Hafiz tmr!Long time no see him..could b bz with his ns..reali lookin forward for tmr..hehe..

co0L....Juz 0pen diS aCc...

2004-11-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

hmm...today will be my first day of my new blog account..yeah dats it..